Firevixen

.. sugar clouds and pepermint dreams..
2002-09-02 19:27:47 (UTC)

I don't need this, I don't want you. Don't sit there and judge me, I am in control of you.

I love Element Eighty. The concert was great last
night. My mom let me go, and I had a great time. I missed
Chris though.. It wasn't the same without him.

I was like.. 2 feet from the stage, usually I'm right up
against it. But at Trees they pack people in like a slave
ship it was bad. People were all pushed against me, and
since I'm so short (cause all the people around me were
guys and TALL and BIG guys) and I was squished, and it was
burning hot, and hard to breathe. I met a guy named Chad
though, he was cool. He held onto me and kept me upright
and all since I was wearing my big pants people would step
on them and then.. weee, there goes Devon!! Chad lives in
Garland, he's 16, loves E-80, has a weird thing with
smurfs, loves blue, likes "punk chicks", and he thinks my
eyes are gorgeous. Lol. He was a lot of fun to talk to
though. So we exchanged numbers so we could talk more. He
asked me if I wanted to go on a date with him but.. um..
Chris. *squeals and huggles her boy* Yeah ^.^ It was so
much fun though. No matter how smashed I got, it was a
blast. When they finished I went back to the bar with Chad
and had like.. 4 glasses of water. Heehee. I was hot
though! If you could imagine.

I didn't do much today, it's only 2:17pm anyway. I miss
Chris, and I can't wait till he gets home cause he's
supposed to call and bring over a Six Flags application. My
mom said she doesn't want to see him though. She said "Have
you ever had a really stressful time, and just not wanted
to talk about it for a few days? Well I don't want to be
reminded for a few days." But.. she's going to see a movie
tonight with some of her friends, so if my dad doesn't
stalk me, and if my neighbors aren't going to tell on me
(which if they see his car they will, cause they're nosey
shits like that), then I can see him.

My mom said that I'm probably looking at 2 weeks of
being grounded. I can't believe it. I lie, I get 2 weeks of
being grounded. My parents lie to me, and they get away
with it? Whatever. She'd just say "I'm the parent",
bullshit. Am I the only one that thinks this is entirely
unfair? I'm not going to do it again, a freaking week would
be enough. Hell, I don't get on-line as much anymore
because of school. These past 2 weeks of nothing BUT school
has driven me mad and into a complete exhasperated state,
and I had been looking forward to this past weeked to relax
(3-day weekend!!). But no. My only outlet source is being
taken away. If that happens I know I'll start cutting
again. I almost threw up twice this weekend cause I've been
guilt tripping myself so much, I still feel like vommiting.
I'm not eating much, my head is pounding more so than it
was before (probably from the loud music last night, lol)
and I can't see Chris. Damnit damnit damnit.

And guess what else. I still haven't done my Physics
homework, and it's due tomorrow night at 11pm (we turn in
our comp assignments over the net). Then there is a major
test on wednesday, AND I have to correct my quiz from last
time. Damnit. I don't even know how to do it all!!! Super.

Since I have nothing else to do.. go to my site cause
I'll be putting up BRAND SPANKING NEW SCHIZNIT!! There's a
link at the bottom of this page with something
like "Firevixen has a webpage, click here to see it."
Yeah.. that should be my site. And if not.. here's the
link.

http://www.angelfire.com/space/firevixen/

Now I expect all of you to send this site to your
friends. And you better comment. I hate feeling like I talk
to myself. There has to be someone out there reading my
crap. And.. if no one's commenting, I just have to assume
no one IS reading my crap. Which makes me sad.. :(

Now for the song of the day!! (er.. there might be 2)


DLable song of the day:
New Found Glory - My Friends Over You
Comments: I've always been a fan of them, the guys are
hilarious. The lyrics are witty and great to sing with. It
has a feel good sound to it.
Type: alternative/punk. whatev. DL it.

CD of the day!!:
Element Eighty
Comments: My fav band, and if you don't go to their site
and buy the CD, then I'll have to hurt some people. They
should still be selling their CD with flatline, bloodshot,
pancake land, ego, etc. on it. And if not.. damnit. But buy
one of the thingys anyways. ^.^ Or talk to me I'll hook you
up.
www.elementeighty.com
Type: Heavy metal.




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