Pixie Eyes

A Pixies Life
2002-09-02 18:55:22 (UTC)

Never Been Kissed

Since a certain freind informed me that they can not give
me a livejournal code, [even though when he first got his
account he said that I could have his code] I will have to
use this lame thing for a journal. I guess its fine because
it serves the same purpose as the rest of them, Its just
not as colorful and stuff. .. blah So VERY blah. Im
watching "Never Been Kissed" and I remember seeing this
movie when i hadnt actually been kissed by anyone before.
And my first kiss wasnt with someone special. I could list
a number of people that I would rather have kissed, and
many would be totally shocked at how my list would look. My
first kiss with my current boyfriend was completely perfect
and I wouldnt take it back for the world. I think that is
the only first boyfriend kiss in my life that I wouldnt
take back. It was awesome and .. like i said before and
could repeat again endlessly... perfect. There is one thing
I do regret though. I never kissed my first real boyfriend.
Honestly, back then I thought that we were going to stay
together forever. He was one of those guys that you meet
and you know in your heart that he is a good person. I
think the timing was just wrong... and since then we have
grown in such different directions that even speaking could
be awkward. It makes me sad to lose that time and never
have the chance to go back. If I could pick one thing to go
back in time todo... that would be it.
But that is definatly over and I can not fulfill that wish.
Now I am happy, and I am glad that I am where I am.
because If i had done anything differently, I would never
have met the person whom i am currently sharing my dreams
and life with.
maybe I'll feel good today, because I should feel whole.
But some days even look to grim and too lonely to describe.
But I will save that topic for another day




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