Marien Locksly

Wisper from the Forest
2002-09-02 03:02:40 (UTC)

I miss him!

I miss ty! It's really sad because I'm haveing a hard time thinking
of eny one else. Nick and I were talking yesterday (he hhelped my
family pack) and we talked about our crushes (he likes ty's little
sister kacy, alot) again,this is weird, nice gave me good advice.
(shock amaizment, well acctually he's growing up so this is becomeing
more common) he told me to tell ty in person the way I feel, I think
he may be right too. I'm jsut scared that if I tell ty, he's just
gona say something like "well, I think we should really just be
fiends right now" or "I really don't like you that way" or "I'm kinda
going out wiht this girl from school now, she and I tlaked all
weekend long and so we started going out, but you know that we are
still good friends and that I'll always be ther for you"........ok,
now I'm scareing myself, I acctually think that he might say that,
almost that exact wording. eeeeep!! maybe he won't say that, maybe
he'll say "yeah, I kinda feel the same way, so what do you want to do
about it?"right, the likely hood of him saying that is so slim to
none that I might as well start crying now. no, I refuse to cry over
this, I've never cried over a guy, not starting now, at least no
untill I here what he sais, then I'll cry. I really hope I get to
see him tonight, otherwise I'll have to wait to talk to him for
another week, I don't know if I can handle that much time. wow, I
sound obsesed, I'm not, I do think about other things, just can't
think about any other guys.*half smiles* at least I know that no
matter what that we will be friends, at least, I'm not sure I could
handle loosing one of my best friends. It would be heart wrenching if
he decided to stop being friends. Now how to tell him that I'm
falling in love wiht him, that's the hard part, the scary thng is
that several other people think I am in love wiht him and that that
is the only explination, I'm inclined to agree with them. *wimpers*
I miss him so much! Right, I should tell him to his face, that way I
can see his face, and eyes...they usually tell me what he's thinking.
He has the most beautiful eyes, they are the mose gorgiouse icey blue
color, wiht long black eyelashes, and a smile that always has a
slight twing to it, so oyu know he's ploting something........*smiles
and comes back to earth* right...., so I guess it all depends on him
getting home tonight, and if we can meet to go to starbucks or
somthing, a movie would be better,......Honestly, I don't care I just
want to see him! This is really pathetic, (nick sais it's cute) I say
it's pathetic, I sound like I'm obsesed and I'm almost sure he
doesn't feel the same way and I start getting ll cute and squeeeky
when I'm talking about him. I've never been this girly about someone,
what's happening to me, I'm starting to sound like a real highschool
girl, quick! someone! slap me! *an invisible hand from the screen
hits my face a few times* thank you I needed that. *wimpers again as
a tear rolles down her face* I miss ty so much.




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