Willow Flare

Willow's Wacky World
2002-08-31 00:30:41 (UTC)

La dee dah

Today wasn't too bad. Went by pretty fast. Worked from
10 am to 5 pm. Debra came in and we talked for an hour or
so. I gave her my muffin and some popcorn. I've known
her for so long, I can just tell when she's hungry. I
knew she hadn't eaten lunch yet. We laughed a lot. I've
really missed spending time with her. It's so cool that
we can be busy and not see each other for months then pick
up right where we left off as if nothing even happened. I
found out that Emily is going to my university. Suzanne,
an old acquaintence from Junior High, told me that she's
in her Algebra class. I checked it out on the website and
she's listed there. I wonder if she's just starting or
what..... I feel a little sad. Emily and I were such
good friends for such a long time and then her activities
drove us apart.... Does that make me a bad person? Am I
really to blame? I've tolerated her drug use and
promiscuity before, why couldn't I just keep on doing
that? I feel like a complete fool sometimes; moments come
to me as I do not belong or I am going in the wrong
direction. What other 19 year old stays home by herself
on a Friday night? It's not because I don't have friends
who want to hang out... I just rather stay at home,
relax. I know I'm odd, but sometimes it gets to me. I
just know that if I was out doing something I may run into
someone who I connect with and that could lead to.... many
possibilities. Love is not logical. I am. My mind can't
figure out a way to use logic to obtain love. It causes
much frustration. Grrrr arrrgghhh (the monster on the end
credits of Buffy)!!! What is it about me? I am a funny
person who has a lot to say but does listen, too. I am
caring, nice, helpful, easy-going. Why doesn't that
appeal to anyone? Maybe it's not the contents of the
package but the look of the box....




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