CGstef

CG Stef
2002-08-30 23:50:04 (UTC)

Is it me?

I don't understand why my parents don't give me the freedom
that all parents give their sixteen year old daughters. If
you think about it, I will be going out in the world on my
very own in two years. Is it my clothes? Is it the music I
listen to? Maybe since I love cartoons and listen to rock
music and dress in T-shirts that have funny things on
them...maybe this is the reason they won't let me have
freedom? Maybe because they don't like who I am...Maybe
they want me to be a typical preppy rap girl...Well I am
preppy a little and I don't care for labels. I just don't
get why they hold me back from being a typical 16 year old.
If they say, "When you're 18 you can do whatever" Well when
I'm 18 I'll be graduated and my friends will mostly be out
of my life probably. I don't care it that happens I
guess...It happens all the time. The only person that I
never want to leave my friendship life is Mara...I can
already feel Lovely and drifting...I've felt it for a
while... We are nothing alike and now that we aren't in
school together and I actually have other
friends...well...you get the point... but anyway... I just
want to be able to say, I'm going here and I'll be back by
this time and leave... like typical teenagers... O well.. I
wish I could use my paycheck to buy an electric guitar at
the big guitar center sale so I could play out my
feelings... but I have a car insurance bill (Even though I
barely drive the damn thing), a band bill (stupid 80
dollars gone!), and volleyball money to pay back to my
parents... plus gas money... I think my parents might pay
the $80 since it's for school reasons... the vball thing
and car is my choice so I want to pay for that... that
leaves me with like $80 .. i'll save 30 for gas and put 50
towards my guitar... o well... back to sitting on my ass at
home :-/




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