psychomagnet

sleeptodreamher
2001-07-18 05:06:18 (UTC)

pretty when i lie.... beautiful liar...

"I cant tell where your lust ends and where your love
begins... I didnt want to hurt you baby, but you're pretty
when you cry... she's losing her virginity and all the will
to compromise... I didnt wana fuck you baby, I didnt want
to fuck you but you're pretty when you're mine, I didnt
really love you baby but I'm pretty when I lie..."


youre so beautiful to me.
"beautiful and grotesque"
and some of your lies are beautiful too.
at least they seem that way at first.
until they destroy me.

your body is so perfect.
your eyes both amaze and scare me.
because i dont know whats behind them.
i thought i did.

a lot of people like you.
a lot of people dont.
but nobody knows you.
and maybe i dont either.
but i came fucking close.

nobody else even wants to know you.
nobody else would care if they knew.

but i know.
and ive been in love with you for 2 years.
i always will be.
my feelings dont change, like yours.

when you hold me. when you kiss me.
when you love me. when you hate me.
sometimes i can tell when you're acting.
sometimes i cant.

but today you felt real.
and today we felt perfect.
and i wanted to never leave.
why cant i know you? why do you lie?

some of your lies are beautiful.
at least they seem that way at first.
until they destroy me.

but most of them dont even make sense.
like. you dont know any better.
you dont know whats true and whats not.

youre so beautiful.
so beautiful. and ugly.
so strong. and weak.
so vain. and insecure.
so sweet. and cruel.

i dont even know what went wrong.. i guess i never will.
i dont know why you cheated... i cant be sure that you did.
but i know that you lied.
and i know that you lie.

some of your lies are beautiful.
at least they seem that way at first.
until they destroy me.

"if you love enuf you'll lie a lot"

i believe that you love me.
i believe that it scares you
and you dont like to be scared.
you dont like to care.
its easier not to. yeah. i used to fucking know that too, baby.

"dont know why i love you like i do, all the changes you
put me through, take my money, my cigarettes, i havent
seen the worst of it yet, i dont know why you treat me so
bad, think of all the things we could've had, i dont know
why i love you like i do, all the DRAMA you put me through"

beautiful liar.
you're so beautiful to me.
beautiful and ugly.
i know youre bad. i know youre bad for me.
i know you arent what i believed..believe you are.
but ive never felt so helpless to break free.
i dont even WANT to.

and as soon as i feel like im okay.
like im moving on.
like i dont need you.
like i dont need your lies and bullshit.
like ive found something or someone else better for me.

well then there you are.
THEN.
there you fucking are.
to "make sure i'm okay".
to hug me and hold me and play with my hair.
to give me little flowers.
to hold my hands.
to fall asleep with me.
to break me BACK down.
again again again
in 2 seconds flat.

beautiful liar.
youre so beautiful to me.
so beautiful and ugly.
i can look at you now and see the ugliness.
see the lies.
see the bullshit.

but i can also still see what i want in you.
BEHIND all that bullshit you've built yourself out of.
your life, your background, your character.
bullshit.

a crazy little boy.
trying to be a big crazy man.
i love you so much baby.
im just waiting for you to let it go.
or for me to let it go.
i dont know what to believe.

are you the person im in love with?
or are you the asshole who cheated on me?

are you the person im in love with?
or are you the asshole who told me after a year and a half,
that im a stupid slut wasting my pathetic life away until i
kill myself because you've made me that weak and youre
proud?

who the fuck are you.
why do i care.
why do i need you.

i will always want you.
i will always need you.
i will always love you.
and i will always miss you...

youre so beautiful.
im so happy in your arms.
we feel so perfect.
when we're real.

when i break that fucking barrier between you and your character.
real and unreal.
truth and bullshit.

i love you.
why cant you BE you?
even just to me.

you cant. you wont.
beautiful beautiful liar
beautiful lies..