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Mysterious Attitude
2001-07-18 00:59:15 (UTC)

Tuesday July 17- Thursday July 19, 2001

*Time: 1:48am its Friday... but since the day hasn't really
started... I'm going to write bout the past 3 dayz
*Wearing: My silk bear and heart pj's
*Jewelry: Tha usual
*Hair: Up in like a messed up bun
*Listenin to : The sound of a train passing by
*Eating/Drinkin: nothing/ just drank sum water
*Song of the day : Hello-Ginuwine
*Weather: Umm the past few days have been sunny and hot
*Talking to : no one im under my secret sn that only John,Kelly,& Sam
know bout... hehe
*Mood: Umm... I have basically been happy for the past 3 days... but
Thursday has to be the day that I was most ummm... happy/excited
*Thinking: Umm... why did Pat lie to me... and hehe I wonder why Jack
sumwhat wants me back....

~~~Tuesday~~~

U know what.. I don't really remember what happened on Tuesday...
all I know that I did was talk to Pat cuz he paged me... and
basically sleep most of the day... lol

~~~Wensday~~~

Ok... on Wesnday(sp i can never spell this word correct) Me and my
mom went swimming at Laura Jo's... and we didn't come home until
9pm... and I was feeling soooo tired and sick from the pool that I
went to bed... but Pat ended up pagin me at 10 I think it was... and
I called him back... we talked for like a few minutes.. and he asked
me if he could call me back... I was like yeah... then we hung up...
and I fell back to sleep.. and I guess he didn't call me back... lol
good cuz I didn't want him to anyway...

~~~Thursday~~~

Ok... Thusday was a very intresting day... U would think I would get
up at like 8am or sumthing cuz I went to bed at 9am... but no I
didn't get my lazy ass out of the bed until like 3pm... lol Bout as
soon as I woke up... I got online... talked to Bobby... him sayin he
loves me and whatever... then I noticed that Jack was online... so I
was like omg... and I imed him... well he didn't answer me back at
first so I was like ok im sry for bothering u.... I guess U don't
wanna talk to me... so bye bye... well like 5 minutes later he
fianlly says hi to me... so I was like hello... and he said hi
again... then he became quiet again for like another 5 minutes...
then we started to talk... and like out of no where he starts talking
sexual to me... lol I was like well damn how do u like that... lol
well anywho... he had told me to sign off cuz he wanted to call me...
so I was like aight hold up let me tell these other people I gotta go
( I was also talking to Bobby,Kelly,David, Rach, Liz, and I think
that's it) He was like no sign off now... lol I was like hold up..
and I told everyone bye...well I signed off... and whatcha know he
did call me... lol and we were talking and from the way he was
talking he missed me... cuz he was dreamin bout me and all this
hehe... lol But he was talking sorta sexual to me... and so I go aww
the same Jack just a little bit more demanding... but now he isn't
mine... and he was like yep.. but u never know... He also told me he
was sorry for the way he treated me... and I was like damn thanks I
have been wanted to hear that from u... and he was like welcome...
Well anywho he could tell that I was a little pissed off at him cuz
he hadn't called me for so long and when he does he talks dirty to
me... and I told him that I was sorry for being a bitch to him all
the times that I was... and he was like ok.. and I went on to say how
I must be a dumbass or sumthing... and he was like nah I was the
dumbass... and I go how do u figure... he was like cuz I should've
never talked to u like I did... I was like its cool... and ohhh yeah
he freaked me out by showin me that all the stuff that I told him
bout myself he still remembered... I was feeling bad tho cuz I don't
think I hardly know anything bout him... well remember anyway =X
lol... but by the way he was talking... I think he is thinking bout
askin me back out... I dunno tho... I also told him bout how Pat had
asked me out... and how sum other people had... but I turned them all
down cuz I wasn't ready... and he was like so if I asked u out again
the day after we broke up... u would've went back out with me? I was
like yeah I probably would... and he was like this is crazy... lol I
was like why u say that.. he goes I dunno u must be whipped on me
huh.. I go I dunno I guess so... he even got me to admit that I
really do love him... lol what can I say... hehe I can't seem to lie
to him... lol Well anyway... im pretty happy bout that... so I'm
going to call Jack tomorrow... and maybe just maybe we will get back
together... hehe see what did I tell ya... I knew it would happen...
and I knew that he missed me... I brought up bout when he told me
that he forgot bout me and moved on and all that crap... and he was
like nah I never forgot bout u... hehe so I feel like 100 percent
better..!!!

~~~Pat~~~

I told Jack sumthings that Pat told me... U know like how he said
his Dad died.. I dunno if I mentioned anything bout that but I just
did... and when Pat told me Jack was cheating on me with that gurl
Amy... and Jack was like well he lied to u cuz his dad can't be dead
cuz he didn't tell me... and no I didn't do anything with that Amy
gurl she wanted to have sex with me but I told her no... and he was
like I told u I never cheat on anyone... I was like yeah I know u
told me that... and I have to admit I did get pissed off when Pat
told me that... but I just wanted to ask u now to see if it was true
or not... so yeah Pat fuckin lied to me... I also told Jack that as
soon as we broke up Pat was tryin to get with me and crap.. and he
was like ohh really... I was like yeah... I think Jack got a little
mad... lol Ohh yeah I told Jack bout me using Pat to get back at
him... but I stopped doing it cuz I knew it wasn't worth it... and he
was like damn if u would've done that I would of never talked to u
again... I was like see thats why I stopped... I mean yeah I did lead
Pat on makin him think I like him... but I really don't... and Jack
was like umm ok....
Well Pat paged me at like 8 I think it was.. and when I told him I
was waiting for Jack to call me back...(which he didn't... I dunno
why... sumthing probably came up.. its all good tho cuz I will call
him tomorrow lol) Pat got pissed off... or so it seemed... lol haha
good... so yeah baby... maybe he will quit pagin me... lol cuz that
boy is going to blow my shit up... lol

~~~~Uncle Bear~~~~

I saw Bear today!!!! He is out of the hospital... so yay!!! But he
made me feel bad cuz I didn't come to see him or call him :( I'll
make it up to him tho... I'll probably stay at their house this
weekend :) Hehe I love Bear sooo much... he was like so when r u
going to come over to our house... I miss your chubby cheeks... lol I
was like awe Probably this weekend.. so yeah I gotta rewrite his poem
I wrote for him... and give that to him when I see him next :)

~~~Andria~~~

Ohh yeah Andria called me tonight while I was on the phone with
Pat... I was like omg gurlie your a life saver... and she was like
why? I was like cuz I was talking to Pat... and I didn't really want
to be... lol and she was like ok.. well she told me what is going on
with her life... and it seems like everything is going great for
her.. im soo happy!!! Now.. all I gotta do is get my life on
track... ::sighs:: its going to be hard... but I know I can do it...
U know what I truly do love that gurl... and I do mean that!!!! She
knows it 2 :) And I know she loves me just like a sister to :)

~~~Well That's All I'm bout to Bizounce~~~

Hehe I sorta wrote all that really fast... I don't really feel like
typing... but I thought I would cuz I know if I didn't i would've
forgot most of that stuff.... I think I wrote down the most basic
stuff that happened... or at least the most important... so that's
good enough... lol So I'm going to dip now... I'll spell check,re-
read, and add anything else that I may of forgot tomorrow... so bye
Peace and B wild!!!




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