Jessica

Jessica's Live Journal
2002-08-27 22:49:23 (UTC)

Frustrated

Yea so I guess the Varsity coach thinks he cut me from JV
even though I didn't try out for JV but he can think what
he wants! I've only worked my ass off my whole time at FBA
and thats all I can do!
I realized that I have to choose my words a little more
carefully because I know what I mean but the person it is
directed towards may not!
All summer I have been saying I just want a boyfriend, I
just want some guy that just loves me regardless. My
friends all have boyfriends and I really wanted one.
However, I have decided to take control of my life. I'm
going to get good grades without a doubt no matter what it
takes! I'm not gonna screw around or anything. If I had a
boyfriend there is a good chance that I would concentrate
on him and that would distract me from my school work,
especially if we got in a fight or something, and I need to
be 100% devoted to my school work, well of course until
basketball starts! I won't be so standbackish though this
year! I'm gonna party and have fun and possibly hook up
with guys every now and then! This year is going to be a
complete turn around for me! Which is good because I'm not
happy now so if I change it might be possible!
Thank god for this journal thing! I don't have to complain
to people and have them get annoyed with me. Thats one of
my problems, I tend to complain to people. With this thing
though I just type it out!
This year is gonna be good! I'm gonna get ridiculously in
shape and not only will it help me with basketball but I'll
look hot in a bathing suit next summer! Haha yeaa!
I'm out for now!




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