jonesenstein

Jonesenstein
2001-07-17 04:13:31 (UTC)

1-19-01


Friday, January 19, 2001
I think I finally figured out what was wrong with
me.
You know how your grandpa or grandma is just plain
old. I mean, everything about them screams ‘old.’ Like
they go to bed early, they wake up early, they eat at weird
times, their body aches all of the time, and they hate
absolutely everything.
I said yesterday that I was cynical and didn’t know
what to do. The problem was that I have become old. I
mean, I keep weird hours, I eat at weird times (like I just
had dinner and it’s almost 1:30 in the morning), my body
has been hurting lately, and I have come to hate
everything. It’s because I feel old. Once I fix that,
everything will slide into place.
Here’ the thing though: I like being old. I don’t
know why, I mean, most of the time I would rather sit
around on my ass, watch TV, play Nintendo, and make love to
Linds all day long. Maybe sleep for a good 10 hours or
so. But most of the time I like to keep busy, I like to go
to bed thinking that I used every possible spare moment
that I had in order to make the most out of my day. I like
that feeling of accomplishment.
So today I am not cynical, I don’t hate everything
(just my roommates), and I am feeling pretty damned good.
Fuck me though, let’s talk about something fun.
About what, I have no idea.
It’s 1:30 in the morning. Gimmee a break.