Friday, January 19, 2001
I think I finally figured out what was wrong with
You know how your grandpa or grandma is just plain
old. I mean, everything about them screams ‘old.’ Like
they go to bed early, they wake up early, they eat at weird
times, their body aches all of the time, and they hate
I said yesterday that I was cynical and didn’t know
what to do. The problem was that I have become old. I
mean, I keep weird hours, I eat at weird times (like I just
had dinner and it’s almost 1:30 in the morning), my body
has been hurting lately, and I have come to hate
everything. It’s because I feel old. Once I fix that,
everything will slide into place.
Here’ the thing though: I like being old. I don’t
know why, I mean, most of the time I would rather sit
around on my ass, watch TV, play Nintendo, and make love to
Linds all day long. Maybe sleep for a good 10 hours or
so. But most of the time I like to keep busy, I like to go
to bed thinking that I used every possible spare moment
that I had in order to make the most out of my day. I like
that feeling of accomplishment.
So today I am not cynical, I don’t hate everything
(just my roommates), and I am feeling pretty damned good.
Fuck me though, let’s talk about something fun.
About what, I have no idea.
It’s 1:30 in the morning. Gimmee a break.