Epistle 2: Reformation
Sunday, January 07, 2001
Well, classes yet again start tomorrow. I’m not
sure how I feel about that. I mean, I really like not
doing anything all day long (although I have a job, but it
doesn’t really count, I pretend to sort mail all day when
in reality I fantasize about a life that doesn’t so closely
resemble hell. Yes, I stole that line), but then again, I
really like learning. I just wish I didn’t have to try so
hard at it.
I’m not sure I like this new me, although there
isn’t really a me yet, that’s kinda what this semester is
for. I want to find a new me, a True me, something that
doesn’t need to lie in order to fit a certain view I have
about the world. I want the True me to just be honest and
if something contradicts itself, then it must change.
Or maybe it should stay the same. Life is full of
contradictions. I dunno. That’s what I’m hoping to find
Life definitely maneuvers. I’ll give it that.