Mizu

Vincent
2002-08-25 03:41:51 (UTC)

And now life sucks for the BOTH of us. I wonder what's next...

This is just great. The minute my life seems to be
improving, POOF! There goes my girlfriend's. Here's a chat
we just had.

Kasai says:
Oh, and I gave dad a black eye.
Vincent says:
How? Why?
Vincent says:
(And you do have quite a nice ass.)
Kasai says:
Well, my neighbor's (thank you. *^^*) daughter-in-law just
had her baby on Friday (they named her Hannah.. ) and Dad
came home drunk. He started crying for some reason and said
that he didn't have to go to work the next day, so he was
going to get drunk.
Kasai says:
It took every ounce of self control that I had to say "Ah,
to hell with drunk. You might as well just pass out now."
Kasai says:
..
Vincent says:
Sigh Poor Kasai. You deserve better..
Kasai says:
(*itch itch*) So then, he goes, "If I try anything, you can
hit me.".
Kasai says:
You can put two and two together, I assume.
Vincent says:
Yeah, I can.
Vincent says:
So what did he do when you hit him?
Kasai says:
Staggered backwards into a wall and started cussing me out.
Vincent says:
Well, he said it.
Kasai says:
So i screamed back and told him that if he didn't leave me
alone I'd run away.
Vincent says:
Aw!
Vincent says:
Well, you know you could have come here if it came to that,
right:?
Kasai says:
mhm... This was after mom started screaming about me
dropping out of GEAR and saying that I didn't deserve nor
had the right to make my own choice about these things, and
that i was only doing it because you were..
Kasai says:
Yeah.. I guess.. I mean, your dad probably wouldn't want me
PERMANENTLY or anything, but i know you're there for me. ^^
Vincent says:
But I'm not...Yeah, and I'm sure he wouldn't mind taking
you in for a little if something like that happened. And
why the HELL wouldn't you have your own choice about
education?
Vincent says:
Isn't that..Oh, there's a name, I know..
Kasai says:
*shrug* but yeah.. a lot's happened in a couple of days..
Vincent says:
I know how you feel. Do you wanna know why I'm up here for
good now?
Kasai says:
It wasn't just the whole "My mom's a crazy sadistic bitch"
thing?
Vincent says:
No. She kicked me out.

In case you couldn't tell, I'm Vincent, she's Kasai.
It's so horrible. And yes, you read right, Vince. My own
mother kicked me out of my own house. I can't take it
anymore, but suicide's not an option. I have to be there
for Kasai. She sounds like she's got it a hell of a lot
worse than me right now.
So now it's 11:30 at night, and I'm wondering, once
more, whether or not this has a reason behind it, or if
Kasai and I are just two struggling little girls who pulled
the short straw on the good life.
I'm not complaning about me anymore, living at my dad's
is about as good as it gets. BUT, with Kasai in her
environment, it doesn't feel like it. It makes me SICK to
think some one would treat such a perfect person so
horribly. I wish I could just walk down there, pick her up,
carry her away, and never have to deal with anything ever
again! I would do ANYTHING for her. ANYTHING. I swear to
god, I would. I take this vow now, as Brigid, goddess and
guardian of water and fire, Mizu and Kasai, that I would
sell my soul for Kasai, the one I love.
Vincent, I feel so lost. I would give my life for Kasai,
but in doing so, she would be alone. And I'm anchored to
this life by her, but I want to get away so badly. I would
never leave her though, and I couldn't explain it to her. I
mean, I could, but I can't predict her reaction. She's
surprised me on so many an occasion...
I can't think about it anymore. I just want this to be
over. I just want us to be together...Oh, Vincent, if you
only knew....
She's telling me now about her dream with us making
love...I only wish, honestly. How I would hold her in my
arms and kiss her tender, hot flesh...
sigh Vincent, something, some force, is working
against us in this world.
All this...So bad...And I'm only 14...It can only get
better...I hope.
~Mizu




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