DamonMouth

The Life and Times of Cupcake
2002-08-24 18:45:05 (UTC)

8/24/02 Please Read Explanation:

Man, my life is so inert right now. I don't do anything
anymore. I'm just sitting around doing introverted things,
like reading and writing and watching movies and running,
waiting for this coming Thursday when I go down to school
for the night. That will sure be interesting. One thing
is for sure, I am definitely not going to drink as much
Kool-Aid this year. No sirree Bob. That stuff really
killed me. But my plan to stop worked. Do you want to
know what my plan was? I figured that I could use Pavlov's
ideas to my benefit. In order to not like Kool-Aid anymore,
I had to feel disgust at the thought of it. How to do
this? Make yourself physically sick. It isn't pretty, but
it would be even less pretty I developed a long-term
addiction to Kool-Aid, wouldn't it? I think so. I think
of all those days when I woke up feeling the after effects,
weakness, loss of control, embarrassment. Come to think of
it, I actually did some things that embarrassed me--no,
more like I was chagrined...HORRIBLY MAD AT MYSELF, and
that is so very unlike me it's funny. I never regretted
things before college, but one thing I've learned this year
is that maybe you need to regret some things to learn.
This is a fine line, a very painfully thin line,
but ...yeah, I don't know where I was going with that.
So I whipped out a homepage on AOL. I am just impatient to
learn the violin and I REALLY REALLY Want a mandolin!
SAHHHIERJKGJ BJK!!!!! OMGOSH I DO! Wow, I am very tired,
and my fatuousness is killing me
...
One thing that keeps occuring to me: People taking me
seriously. I really don't want people to take me
seriously, in a way that scares them. I just want everyone
to know that I am joking and yet I am truly honest
and ....oh man....therein lies the confusion (no pun
intended). I just feel the need to explain myself...

Guys: don't think I like you more than I say, because I say
what I mean and if I liked you I would tell you. No frills
or worries about it.
Girls: I don't feel like I need to explain anything to you
because we are the same sex, so attraction is not assumed
or invented and I believe that the possibility of
attraction is the problem here...Just because I do things
with good intentions for people (I'm not going to name
examples here) doesn't mean that I like the guy, does it?
No. It doesn't. It means that I did a nice thing for
him. And for those of you with sick minds, don't invent
any ideas outside of the Platonic relationship boundaries.

And as a final note: terms of agreement are subject to
change without notice.




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