CrimsonIdol

CrimsonIdols diary
2002-08-23 18:56:40 (UTC)

Sliding down a slippery slope.

Apart from seeing laura and mike on wednesday, I've been
alone for about 6 days now. I think I'm going slightly nuts.
I can't seem to settle to anything and I'm feeling like such
a wretched FREAK its unbelievable. Why the fuck do I have to
be like this? I just need a hug I guess. Maybe also some
sort of idea if anyones reading this. A small email to say
so is all I need.

Fuck it. Fuck all of this shit. I hate myself right now and
I cant do anything about it. My life and sanity is in the
hands of a bunch of grey, anonymous suit wearing fucks who
cant see anything unless its represented by a figure ("Whats
the index code for integrity?") that are supposed to
determine if I can move out of this state of limbo.

FUCK FUCK FUCK.

Speak soon

Crimson




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