jonesenstein

Jonesenstein
2001-07-15 22:09:01 (UTC)

1-25-00

Tuesday, January 25, 2000
Purpose of this book compared to 286 Days: This is
more of an awakening intellectually, where as that was more
of an awakening socially. I learned how to deal with
people, now I’m trying to deal with myself and my fucked-up
viewpoints. I’m trying to find my way in my own life.
For instance, in there I talked about my friends
mostly, and how I wanted a girlfriend, and how I would
never be the same after high school. In this I’m talking
about my head and what’s in it.
Anyway…
Nothing going on. I’ve been trying to hook it up with this
one girl named Betsy in my Spanish class. I think I might
be getting back into the game. I don’t know why, I just
might be. It’s not like I’m sick of being alone or
anything like that, it’s just that… OK, I’ve figured some
things out.
Everyone needs something new. That’s why when I
was young, I could just sit around and watch TV all day:
because it was new. That’s why I could just sit at Harris’
all day and not do anything: because it was new. That’s
why so many people drink so much and do so many drugs in
college: because it’s new. I think I might need another
relationship. It’ll be new. Or at least a little
different. I think that’s why I chose to be an English
Teacher; it’s something a little different every day of the
week. I couldn’t stand one of those jobs where you’re just
a cog in a machine.
I don’t really have a whole lot to say to you for
some reason. Things have been going well. Today I didn’t
really do a whole lot…
Oh, wait I did.
I went to school, as usual, I hit on Betsy, as
usual (and a little bit of Sara), and then I came home.
Afterward though, I was supposed to go to an orientation
for tutoring. After that I was supposed to go to another
orientation for mentoring.
So, I went to the first one, and there was some God-
awful looking lady in there trying to hit on me, laughing
at absolutely everything I said (even my name), giggling
for no reason other than for me to ask her why she was
laughing. I left there a little early because I had an
over-lapping thing with my mentoring orientation.




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