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GLASS OF TEARS
2002-08-22 01:30:19 (UTC)

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IT HAS BEEN SUCH ALONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG TIME SINCE I LAST
WROTE ANYTHING ...BUT I GUESS ITS NEVER TO LATE TO CATCH
UP.WELL ALOT HAS HAPPENED THINGS WITH MY HUSBAND
ARE ,..WELL ..HOW CAN I PUT IT THE SAME HE IS NOW NOT
LIVING AT HOME BECAUSE I KICKED HIM OUT BECAUSE HE KEPT ON
CALLING HIS LOVER EVEN AS A FRIEND HE SHOULDNT BECAUSE I'M
CONVINCED HE WOULDNT LIKE IT EITHER.EVEN THOUGH I HAVE
KICKED HIM OUT HE SPENDS ALOT OF TIME HERE BUT ITS MOSTLY
SLEEPING ...YES I STILL AMAZINGLY BEG FOR HIM TO MAKE HIS
MIND AND TO COME BACK HOME BUT LATELY I JUST DONT FEEL IT
AS MUCH AS I USE TO I MEAN I LOVE HIM THATS ONE THING I'M
TERRIBLY SURE OF BUT I'M JUST GETTING TIRED OF.I JUST
FOUND OUT HE MADE RESERVATIONS TO GO TO PERU TO SPEND THE
HOLIDAYS OVER THERE WELL IF HE WANTS HE CAN DO IT BUT HE
BETTER NOT RETURN EVER EVEN IF I WANTED HIM TO I DONT WANT
TO GO BACK TO THE SAME THING..TO HAVE TO WORRY ABOT WHAT HE
IS DOING ...WHO IS HE CALLING ??? THOSE KIND OF DUMB THINGS
THAT CAN AGGREVATE ANYONE.THANK GOD THAT I'M FINDING MANY
THINGS TO GET MY LIFE GOING I'M GONNA START VOLUNTEERING AT
THE HUMC HOSPITTAL AND HOPEFULLY I'M GOING TO COLLEGE FOR
MY NURSE DEGREE I'M SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS TO HELP
PEOPLE IN ANYWAY I CAN MOSTLY TO JUST FORGET AND WORRY
ABOUT PEOPLE WHO REALLY NEED WORRYING ABOUT.I WANT TO BE
SOMEONE HAVE AN EDUCATION LATE BUT HAVE IT WHICH IS ALL
THAT MATTERS ...MY KIDS ARE GOING BACK TO SCHOOL IN TWO
WEEKSMY LITTLE ONE IS IN DAYCARE FULL TIME AND MY FIVE YR.
OLD IS FINALLY GOING TO KINDERGARDEN AND THE OTHERS WILL
ALSO BE IN SCHOOL 5TH - 3RD - AND I THINK 2ND I'M VERY
PROUD OF MY KIDS .MY OLDEST IS LEARNING TO PLAY THE
CLARINET AND HAS HER FIRST SOCCER GAME THE 7TH OF
SEPTEMBER ..SHE LOVES IT...SHE IS ALSO INVOLVED IN GIRLS
SCOUT ASWELL AS HER SISTER AND HOPEFULLY THEIR SIBLINGS
WILL CONTINUE.I WANT TO GET THEM INVOLVED IN MORE
STUFF .THANKFULLY THIS SUMMER THEY SPENT IT A CAMPALL OF
THEM SO I'VE PRETY MUCH HAD IT EASY.MY SON HAS A BIG
BROTHER AND HE IS JUST GREAT AND HAS TAKEN MUCH AFFECTION
TO JONATHAN I'M HAPPY BECAUSE HE HAS A MALE ROLE MODEL TO
FOLLOW.I STILL SEE MY WONDERFUL MENTOR.,WHICH HAS HELPED ME
PLENTY AND INSPIRED ME TO GO TO COLLEGE.MY ROOMMATE AND
FATHER-N-LAW HAVE MOVED OUT AND I THINK MY BROTHER IS
MOVING IN TO STAY WITH KIDS WHILE I GO TO WORK.HE HAS BEEN
HELPING A LOT WE HAVE REPAINTED THE HOUSE WHICH IS LOOKING
MORE AND MORE LIKE A DECENT APARTMENT THE KIDS HAVE SOME
WHAT OF THERE OWN ROOMS GIRLS WITH GIRLS AND BOYS WITH BOYS
THAT WAY MY BROTHER CAN WATCH HIM AND THE GIRLS WONT HAVE
TO FIGHT WITH MY SON EVERYNIGHT I REALLY DO LOVE THE
ARRANGEMENT AND OF COURSE I FINALLY HAVE SOME PRIVACY AND
MY OWN ROOM WITH COMFORT ASWELL AS EVERYONE ELSE.I FEEL SAD
TIME TO TIME BUT THATS LIFE WHO DOESNT FEEL SAD BEING ALONE
I JUST HAVE TO LEARN TO COPE WITH IT.LEARN TO BE ONE WITH
LONELINESS.BUT I HAVE MY WONDERFUL AND ADORING FAMILY THAT
ISNT PERFECT TO COMFORT ME AND SHARE WITH ME THE GOOD AND
BAD THINGS THAT COME TO LIFE..I OVE THEM ALL JUST THE WAY
THEY ARE WITH ATTITUDE , TEMPER AND ALL.WELL I THINK THAT
ABOUT SUMESIT UP TTFN