ehhh im being slow tonight.
the time just keeps passing.
people and things come.
and change you as a person..
thats all life is about really.
and different reactions.
im finding myslef letting go of a lot recently.
i think im about to make another big change in my life..
a change for the better.
i dont think about you anymore.
and i dont know if thats good or not.
its a lot healthier.
im being more productive...
im taking care of myself.
you kissed me.
and told me every thing would be alright.
you held me so tight that night..
and i thought that i was finally safe.
i was awake but i didnt want you to know.
i was afraid you would go..
i know that i wont hear from you anymore.
our time together has past.
and truthfully i never expected it to last.
i didnt believe your promises of forever.
but i let you beleive what you wanted to.
to make you happy.
i would have been your crazy girl.
i would have held your hand.
our life together coud have unfirled.
into a beautiful cloud of contentment and smiles.
happy times and stupid rhymes.
you will fade from mind.
all is lost with time.
i probably wouldnt reconize you in a crowd.
and you probably wouldnt mind.
i was your trophy lay.
i didnt stay.
we will never know.
forever means a lot to some.
infact it means a lot to me..
and i will love you.
i was just a stupid girl.
a stupid girl in love with you.
a stranger to pain.
so much to gain.
i had nothing to loose.
you awoke my heart.
i am all yours...
if you want it.
my issues are many.
and my craziness is apparent.
but youre still here..
youre willing to try.
the only thing i have to give you..
i promise you.
i will never lie.
somethings i do will hurt you.
and sometimes i know i can be cruel.
that you are the one im thinking of.
youre the one who has my heart.
i wish we werent so far apart..
but i know.
in our hearts. we will never part.
with you i mean forever too.
and, im not afraid of that..
i only hope that i make you as complete.
as you have made me.
there is no competition baby.
its you and me.
through all the trials of life.
i know we can make this..
i wont give up.
if you dont.
i have nothing left but hope.
and thats all placed in you now.