camil......a

confused and yet so agrivated
2002-08-20 02:37:58 (UTC)

BZZZZZZZZZ

ok ya my friends are fucking idiots...ok so we're @ ,y pool
and for some reason ian got mad...then chelsea decided to
start walking and she never stopped...she decided to walk
home...so then about 5-10 min later ian gets his stuff and
starts walking as well...me and sean start to fallow him
and he refuses to stop or talk...then he starts to beat
himself up..ill admit it was kinda funny b.c he looked like
an angry drunk...me and sean have no idea whats going on,
mind u. so the we pass me house and im confused b/c
chelseas gone and ian doesnt stop...so then finally i run
up to ian and i ask him whats wrong and he pulls this "im
hate myself b/c i have everything i could possibly want and
yet im still not happy" bullshit. yes, that is the same
bullshit that i torment myself with but u see, i dont
torment other ppl w/ it...i keep it locked away inside
where it doesnt bother any 1 except for myslef....and i
dont get mad and start beating myself up like a god damn
fool...i get depressed and sit there and stare into
nothingness...so i finally get ian to stop and wait for
sean...by that time im already pissed off and i leave and
let them do whatever the hell they want to do...i said bye
to sean though, b/c as usual sean is the only one of my 3
friends that i cant recall having pissed me off. meh so
like goes on and sucks for another nite...i was gonna be
all complain complain camila...but no, alas im too pissed
off. im so mad that i have no words to exspress my
anger..usually i cry or i hit something...but im too tired
to hit anything and i do not feel like crying...thats the
worst kind of anger...when u cant do anything to relsease
it...all this mess happend b/c ian needed his
ps2...appearantly there was no life on earth until the
great ps2 was created...the whole human race just sat
around and layed there waiting for that one day when man
would invent that ingenius invention.




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