Spitfire

Out of my Depth
2002-08-19 06:19:05 (UTC)

When it all goes wrong again

Well, of all the topics my first diary entry could be
about, its about school. Its usually something i dont want
to think about, but i found myself smacked with the reality
of it this semester. I have been at the same college for 4
years now. And I have yet to decide what i want to do with
my life. I thought for sure I wanted to be a journalist,
because my teachers had always praised my writing abilities
and told me that I had a way of "painting pictures" with
words. Well, at the time I took their word for it and took
a journalism class. Perhaps it was the fact that i had the
most uninteresting teacher in the whole world, or maybe it
was the fact that it ran from about 6pm to 10:30pm. and i
had to drink about 5 cups of coffee to stay awake. Or
maybe, as i thought at the time, it was because i simply
didnt want to be a journalist. I didnt turn in any
assignments.. mostly because i walked out during our break
never to return.

I then took a film class. It was pretty cool at first, till
they got technical. then i lost interest and decided the
whole movie industry wasnt for me. My photography stint was
probably my favorite class, and i still enjoy having fun
with the camera. But can I really make a living off
photography? I mean, something to pay the rent? No. To be a
good photographer, like a good journalist, you have to get
in there deep and ask the serious questiosn, often with
your lens and in the face of other peoples tragedy. I wasnt
sure I wanted to do that.

Which leaves me where i am right now. Taking a bunch of
psychology classes, and still unsure if I'm sane enough to
help other people. I mean, half of LA is a major in some
kind of psychology class. Although i have narrowed it down
to a few fields, Criminal and Child. Child psychology
attracts me the most because in order to know what kids are
going through, you have to understand where they are coming
from. And often times, if you dont understand the
background, you cant possibly understand the conflict.

Before i forget, I should introduce myself. My name is
Anna, I live in L.A., i'm 21 and a college student. My
major *at the moment* is psychology, with an emphasis on
child development. I have two cats, Jessica(8) and Damien
(6mths). Two dogs, Charlie(5) and Zepe(3). I have an older
brother and a younger sister, both who are more loved than
me. I'm going through a yoga-incense-romance novel-
starbucks-meditation period in my life. I love writing,
although i seldom do. I mostly daydream novels in my head,
but never write them down.

Yes, i talk a lot. I think i know that by now! But its only
because i dont know who will read this, or even if youll
get this far. Till next time, same bat time, same bat
channel.

Ciao bellas.
Annes.




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