camil......a

confused and yet so agrivated
2002-08-18 04:22:40 (UTC)

damn u 15, damn u to HELL!

indeed so today was basically a waste of time but meh....go
dammit sometimes i sit and i wonder how danielle leaper
could be so incredibly stupid...she has been making toden
feel like crap and its not fair...he is one od the sweetest
kids i knoew...yes hes a man whore and yes they basically
are going out for ass but goddamit its not fair....all
danielle ever does is ignore him, when shes not ignoring
him she raping him...thats not a rilationship...thoden was
like "i look at you and ian and then i look @ me and
danielle and its not the same thing @ all.." true theres a
diff between a year and about 2 wekks but still....so
basically i became thodens best friend for the nite...meh y
not? i dont really have a best friend...welln i have matt
but we never talk so i dont have anyone to talk to....and
knowing that matt hates ian doesnt exactly help b/c
everytime i talk to matt about ian he make a face...but o
well...anyways i digress...so i was helping thoden and bla
bla bla then danielle pulled a diva and ran into the
bathroom pissed off b/c chelsea told her that nobody gave a
shit that her bra didnt glow in the dark like it was
supposed to,...mainly b.c its true- no one cares...so then
i had to sit there w/ thoden and danielles little friend
who i didnt like and ignore them...i really really dont
understand it...how the hell does a girl like that get guys
all the damn time? shes shallow and a HUGE drama queen, all
she basically cares about is herself and she doesnt care
how she hurts others...she has to be the worst girlfriend
in history...and then you have someone like chelsea...im
mean, chelseas smart pretty nice and sweet when she wants
to be and you know that chelsea will not be all like "hmmm
its been two days and i still have the same boyfriend, time
to get a new one" shes a classy smart kid...y doesnt any
guy notice how great she is and if they do how come they
dont say anything...im mean ya guys have liked chelsea but
they were all dumb guys who dont diserve her...how come a
good desent guy who DOES diserve her come into her life?
its just not fair...i truly dont understand the world and y
it has to suck so much.

maybe i like chelsea so much b/c shes alot like me...we're
almost exactly the same...i love her so much...meh i dont
know sometimes i wonder y all the shallow stupid ppl get
all the good things early in life its not fair...i
understand that ppl like chelsea will get wat they diserve
later but its still not fair...meh..lifes not fair..idk
sumtimes that little fat girl i used to be that always
thought there was good in evry 1 even they dont show it
appears in me once again and then all of a sudden my angry
side shows up and sends the little 10 year old fat girl
back to the rifridgorator in the back of my head...hehehe
im screwed up...NO NO IM NOT! thats probably wat pisses me
off the most, i say im screwed up but im not, errr i dont
no what they hell is wrong with me. sometimes i choose not
to be happy for whatever reason(which i dont no) and then i
get this way..i dont understand things at all...maybe its
just part of being 15..yes yes thats it its just part of
being 15. i shall blame it on the age.




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