Sw3etHonEsTy626

Am I Dreaming?
2002-08-18 00:57:07 (UTC)

-;-A New Beginning-;-

wow, i havent wrote in here for a long time! i guess i jus
forgot about it...but theres been alot that happend since
the last time i wrote in my diary! ok,well let me start!...

ok...well... lets start off by tellin that i broke up wit
my boyfriend!(that was such a big relief!) it was sooo
hard becuz he kept on tellin me how much he needs me and
that he loves me and its not fare that im doin this to
him! lol, that was kinda funny for sum1 to tell me that!
but anywayz...all i told him was, life isnt fare and
things change and people change. my feelings for him jus
left and there was no point of me going out wit him! (im
so mean, aint i?) sooo...yea...ummm, ive been talking to
the fyne azz guy and weve been getting to knoe each other
more! which is a good thing, becuz at first i didnt knoe
him at all! we joke around alot and i jus like talkin to
him and jus laughing at his corny jokes he makes. maybe
this can turn into a good thing! it might be a good b/f-
g/f relationship or a good friend relationship!? the only
thing that would be kinda weird is that hes my cousins
friend then my cousin would tell my family about it!!! but
it also can be a good things becuz then it would be the
first relationship that is open wit my family and maybe we
can see each other more becuz my parents knoe him and they
will be comfortable me goin places wit him! my mother
already met him and she said that she likes him!
so...maybe my life can get better and things will work out
for me!? hey, u never knoe wat the future holds!??

my ex-b/f hasnt talked to me in awhile. the last time i
talked to him was like last week! we talked about goin
sumwhere together and me goin over his house
to "supposedly" jus look at a movie! yea, lets see if that
jus happens!lol! but anywayz..i think were growing apart
from each other....but my feelings i have for him are
still there! thats why i jus cant let him go! hes been jus
a big part of my life...and for him to jus slip away like
that, is jus too weird for him to go! but who knoes, maybe
time will will seperate us and we will find new ppl to
fill in the space!?

But till then, im still confused about my life! it helped
for my b/f to be out of my life and im glad i broke up wit
him!at least i made one good decision in my life so far...

skool's startin up again!!! ERRRRRRR!!!!! i dont wanna go
bak for shiet! maybe jus to see my friends, but for the
homework and bitchy teachers....hell no i dont wanna go
bak!!!! it was fun freshman year but things will probably
be different this year! jus becuz i might get new
friends!!! :'(
i loved jus actin hella crazy and not caring wat ppl
thougt about me! it jus really brought out the real person
that i am and i loved that! my friends were exactly like
me and we all got along good. when we were together, ppl
couldnt stop us becuz we would jus have so much fun!
*snif*snif* i miss those dayz!!! i hope we jus stay really
good friends, becuz for friends to bring out the real u
and for u to feel comfortable being u, then those are real
friends and everybody needs at least one friend like that!
im glad i found them and to all of u,(u knoe who u are!)
I LOVE YOU GUYS SOO MUCH




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