sweetaddiction

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2001-07-12 20:26:16 (UTC)

AHHHHHHHHHH IM FUCKIGN GOING..

AHHHHHHHHHH
IM FUCKIGN GOING FUCKING CRAZY
i LOVE TOO MANY PEOPLE. and i love TOO much and i get hurt
but i hurt other people too. and i dont understand and i
love people so much and i dont know what im doing and this
fuckgin song is still playing and shit man i dont know
whats wrong with me i bring all this shit into my life its
like i NEED it or something and thats not good and im just
venting and mabers leaveing soon and jennifer is too and
shaun already left and fucking i havent even really talked
to him since then and that fucking sucks and my sister
moved away too early and fucking MY PARETNS didnt even
fuckign tell me when she was elaving i was fucking EIGHT
and theyre like oh yeah by the way your sister that you
love so much is leaving for cali. tomorrow and youre not
goingt o see her for four fucking years. and i went
ballistic and now i cant take fuckign anyone leaveing me
becase they all fucking do although its my fault so then im
a whining bitch. its my fault. my fault. i KNOW this. but i
HATE it. i HATE the way i am sometimes. and brittanys all
like, oh change blahfucking blahblha. yeah. peopel that say
that shit ARENT fucking like this. fucking at all. oh if
you hae a drug probelm just fuckng quit. YEAH. ALRIGHT
ASSHOLES. fuckign god damnit fucking damnit. fucking i dont
know what im fucking doing. and then this other shit god i
so wont even get into that. at all. i cant. ubt fucking
what the HELL was that about. you know. lol. great self
control and view of your self ashley. LOL. fucking awesome.
adriennes father is DYING. what the HELL is that. GOD
DAMNIT. you know. fuckign and shes all like ohhh caroline.
lol. whatever. fuckgin whatever man. and i HATE that
fuckgin word. its so fuckign stupid. whatever. and i talk
like a valley girl lol. "whatever". fuckign YOU KNOW. I
DONT WANT TO THINK OR FUCKING FEEL ANY FUCKING MORE. FUCK
THIS SHIT. JUST FUCK IT. and IMMMMMM FUCKING not even the
one who shnould be upset. so what the FUCK am i doing? LOL.
fucking whatever fucking fuck. my parents dont fuckign even
care. lol. my dad HATES me. my mother is fuckign drunk all
the fucking time. my dad is such a prick. life is a bunch
of fucking pain with momentary happiness. you know. and i
take the happiness when it comes. and then that makes me
even sadder in the end. because people get hurt. and you
know i wouldnt fucking stand for this shit. at fuckign all.
but thats the difference between us i guess. you know. i
fucking dont deal with this shit. and i wish that you didnt.
for you. but for me. im glad that you do. because i love
you so fucknig much and youre so fucking great and i hate
so much and love too much and not enough and all the wrong
things i do and everything i hurt and how i hurt myself.
what the FUCK was that about. what the FUCK did i do. and
WHY the FUCK did i fucking do it. i am a bad person. i am
who i hate.




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