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Mysterious Attitude
2001-07-12 19:42:55 (UTC)

Last Night... What Happened With Adrian

*Time: 1:49 (The rest of my stats don't matter)
*Song of this entry... I Hate U-Prince
*Part of the Lyric: I never thought that U would be the one
After all the things that we've been through
U gave your body 2 another in the name of fun
I hope U had some baby, if not, boo hoo
CHORUS:
It's so sad but I hate U like a day without sunshine
It's so bad but I hate U cuz U're all that's ever on my
mind
Honey, I hate U - Now everyday would be a waste of time
Cuz I hate U

~~~Midnight last night until almost 2am~~~

Ok your probably wondering ... why in the hell is her
title for this entry is "What Happened With Adrian" and why
is her song of the entry "I Hate U" ... well let me
explain: That song fits everything that happened last
night ... see the song I hate u... is saying that u hate
sumone u care for cuz they hurt u... but U can't really
hate them cuz u care for them so much...and that is how
exactly I feel bout Adrian right now =-/
I seriously didn't think Adrian would be like all them
other guys I liked... u know they always liked me for a
little while ... and then stopped liking me ... when sum
other gurl came along that happened to like them... But I
guess I was wrong... Ok let me start from the beginning....
About as soon as I called Adrian back ... he automatically
started to talk bout this gurl that he thinks likes him at
his work... He was saying how she had sum guy tell him that
she did like him...I guess he gave her his number (which is
the way second graders act it makes u wonder why 18 year
olds still do it)... Then sum guys that he worked with ...
were telling him(Adrian) that there is this room where some
of the guys workers ... go to so they can do sexual
things... U know like get their dick sucked ... well they
went on to tell Adrian that this gurl wanted to do that
with him...so that tells u what guys think about... =-/ He
also said that he was going to meet her tomorrow for like
the first time face to face ... and he even asked me if the
outfit he wore to see me was nice!!! I was like damn I feel
really special now ... and also he said that he would
probably get her flowers and candy also... I was like what
the fuck... u could only imagine how I felt... ohh yeah he
also went on to tell me how she looked sooo good.. and how
he thought he couldn't ever have a gurl that hot like
him ... so that made me feel like I was ugly or sumthing...
which I probably am... but ohh well its me what can I do
bout it?¿
Adrian was telling me that he was excited and nervous cuz
that gurl is going to be calling him tomorrow ... at like
11am... which is the time he usually calls me ... so yeah
that meant he wouldn't be talking to me... All the time he
went on talking bout her... I started to try and make him
feel just as bad as he was making me feel... I told him
that I regret meeting him ... when he asked me why... I
gave him a plain "I dunno."... I then said... "your
probably the last guy I will ever meet off the computer cuz
I'm sick of the same things happening..." and what does he
say?¿ Sumthing in the lines of... ok... I was like well
damn don't he see he is not only making me mad ... but he
is also making me feel so... ummm used?¿ I had also
said "I'm giving up on guys and that I'm going to try and
find a gurlfriend cuz a gurl would treat me so much
better.." What did he tell me ... yet another dull leading
answer.... Which in return made me feel even worst.. and
become even more pissed off at him...
After saying sum of that stuff ... he finally realized
that he was hurting me ... but when I asked him to say what
was on his mind ... all he could say is "I dunno how to say
it" ... and then he went on to say he was still thinking of
that gurl... He had asked me if I really did like him ...
and all I said to him was "Maybe I do ... or maybe I don't"
He could probably tell I was crying ... but it didn't seem
as if he cared... Then I asked him if he even liked me..
and he said "Well ... umm your nice...:::pause::: but
umm... we didn't really click" I was like don't I feel
special ... but I didn't say anything to him... I just
stayed quiet until he started to talk again... I think I
ended up stayin that if him and that gurl do start to go
out... I don't want to talk to him anymore ... cuz I don't
want to be in the way ... or cause problems... I mean damn
I even wished him best of luck with her ... but deep down
inside I was and still am hoping that gurl don't like
him.... Cuz if he tries to come back to me... I will be
like fuck u... I will act just like Jack does ... cuz that
seems to work the best ... and no Jack didn't tell me
that ... and when he did he meant sumthing else if u know
what I mean... hehe but anywho...
I had told Adrian that I have this feeling that I wouldn't
be talking to him that much longer and he was like "I will
keep in touch with u no matter what" all I said was "Yeah
that's what they all say" and he said "I'm not like all of
them" and I was like "Well how r u different ... all guys
are the same..." and I think to that he was quiet... Well,
we talked until like 2am... and I know he thought I was mad
at him which yeah I was ... and he knew that he had hurt
me ... and rather he knows that he has lost a friend yet...
I dunno but the next time I talk to him... I'm going to
tell him how I feel ... and how I don't want to speak to
him ever again... I mean it will be hard ... and yeah I am
happy that he was honest with me ... but u know how that
saying goes "What they don't know ... won't hurt them" Well
before he chance to say bye ... his phone went dead ... so
he got on his other phone ... paged me and said "Hey Helena
is Adrian.... I wanted to page u and tell u that I didn't
hang up on u or anything ... but that my phone went dead
before I could get the other phone ... so I just wanted to
tell u bye ... and that I will keep talking to u... well
I'll talk to u later bye" well summating like that.. bout
the same I dunno.. who cares ... as soon as I heard that I
was like fuck u... I told my uncle and gram what happened
and they gave me sum really good ideas on how to get him
back...so I was going to tell him that I had a date with
sumone today ... but he didn't call me.. so im guessing
that gurl did call... ohh yeah I forgot to say... I told
him I was listening to the song "I Hate U" and he was
like.. why would U want to listen to sumthing like that I
was like "I dunno I always do" and then I went on to tell
him what the song meant...and he realized what I was
talking bout ... well hey... I don't want to write anything
else bout the phone call ... what I did write covered bout
everything anyway ... so I will go now ... and probably
work on my second "Thoughts" page ... so bye bye 4 now

~~~Sumthing I forgot to say~~~

I told Adrian that I wasn't going to have phone sex with
him anymore... so he was like " Ok I can understand that"
and what does he do... not to much longer after I said that
he goes " Do u wanna do sumthing for one last time" I was
like no.... and he goes "ok" I was like "Why do u" and he
goes "yeah" I was like "nah I'm sorry I dont want to" and
he was like "It's ok..." I mean damn that sould tell me
right there that all he wants is sex anyway..even if he is
still a virgin....

~~~~Sumthing else I forgot~~~~

He told me that he didn't like secrets... well he was
talking bout how I wouldn't tell my mom if he went out or
did anything... which I thought was totally had nothing to
do with what we were talking bout... but yeah whatever...
all he does is uses gurls and he wonders why he hasn't had
a gurlfriend yet...and as u can see... I have sour feelings
towards him now... and he has the nerve to say "I dunno
what happened between me and U"... I was like damn U just
tell me that u might be going out with sum other gurl..
when your supposed to like me... and U think I'm not going
to be pissed at your ass... I mean good lawd it is 2001 and
not the 1930's...




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