wd9898

my love war..enter if you dare, but help
2001-01-13 04:42:29 (UTC)

well i just got off work and i..

well i just got off work and i thought id come home and
write...i dunno what about except when i was riding home
from work i was listenng to avant, this really cool cd that
i copied from keaver..well one song is called
separated..its a reallly good song..one of my favorite
songs now..its really cool..well it put me in the mood to
write...its just talking about that when they were together
theyd do anything for eachother but now that they are
separated that they dont like eachother...that is what i am
scared is happening between me and kevin..i really dont
want it to but i think that might be what is going to
happen..i dont want it to cuz i really liek kevin..if he
were to say marry me id jump on it..i care about him sooo
much..plus he was just the second guy i had sex with...i
cant lose him..it just wouldnt be right..we atleast have to
be friends..i mean we juat have to be freinds...i dont
think that i will be able to sit through the classes and
not talkto him or whatever...well we were suppossed to have
class together this semester..but we dont now..i think that
might be a good thing...cuzthen i wont sit there and look
at him all period and stuff....maybe ill be able to
concentrate...anyway...

i am soo torn...i want to be good..but yet i want to have
sex again..if zach were call me up and say come over id
jump on it but i shouldnt cuz then if i did get preg hed
run, but then id make his ass pay child support..and see
kevin said he hang around and try his best to make it
work..and thats why he dont fuck anyone that he dont think
he could be with..but then i guess i musta been an
exception..i dunno now i am starting to really feel liek
this ho..i mean i have neevr had sex in a realtionship...it
started out casual..i justwanted the experience..and then i
got hooked and it wasnt even good.zach just didntdo it for
me..then there came kevin..i reallly liek him...and we just
started hanging out then there bam..it was like ok im ready
to have sex with you and he said ok..so we did...it was a
short one cuz the time wasnt cool...but then we did it
again and we ended up getting stopped by his brother but it
was better and i am egtting closer to achieving a damn
orgasm..i so want one...but i dont think that itwill happen
with kevin cz i dont think we will hang any time
soon..anwyay...




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