Jessica T.

how i see life...
2002-08-13 17:49:47 (UTC)

mistake?

shout out to corey! happy 18th birthday! now you can buy
cigarettes and porn...lol!

dang it's been awhile since i last wrote in my journal.
the last time a wrote in it was right before kyle left.
it just seems like i have less and less to write about.
is it possible for me to actually get all of my feelings
out in the open and run out of things to say?

i'm questioning if i made a mistake or not. most everyone
knows what happened the other night at rachels house. at
the time it seemed ok to do but i wasn't quite myself(if
you know what i mean). i hope that people arn't mad at me
for doing that and i hope that if they are they can maybe
let it slide. sometimes when i think about it i kinda
feel like a slut because i just made out with someone it's
not like i was even in a relationship with that person.
and it doesn't help when people constantly remind me what
i did the other night. i can handle a little teasing but
sometimes it just gets to be over bearing and i start to
feel like shit everytime they mention it. i know it is
all in good fun but i think people should just let it be.
yeah i know alot of you are probs saying i shouldn't have
done it if i didn't want to get teased about it.
and now that this has happened people are asking me how i
feel about this boy. i don't know how i feel about him. i
don't know if we are going to get together. i would just
say to wait and see but i don't think it will happen. and
how did tanya a. find out about this??? it's completely
weird that someone who doesn't even hang out with us knows
about this.
maybe i'm just reading too much into the happenings of the
other night. and i'm probs doing that because i have so
little experiance with guys and the last guy i made out
with i was dating. (wow that makes 2 guys i've kissed
now. it's the big time now.)




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