McCall

the life of a not so perfect KT girl
2001-07-11 23:18:38 (UTC)

My future

CURRENT MUSIC : INTERSATE LOVE SONG -STP

CURRENT MOOD : I AM NOT SURE WHAT TO FEEL !

humm ya know today i was thinking what am I really gonna do
when i get older .. I mean I graduate in a year basically
and like I am still trying to decide what kinda docter i am
going to be .. I mean at first it was a pediactric surgen
and now i can not really deal with the thought of cutting
up little kids .. and now i am trying to settle on the fact
of being a pediatrican .. I am almost sure this will be my
final dessicion .. I hope it will at least .. As far as
Marraige and kids and dogs and picket fences .. humm naww i
am to jumpy and spure of the momment for things like
that .. or atleast i am now.. I mean really now .. I can
not see any one calling me mommy .. maybe in the future i
dunno the whole thing kinda scares me .. i mean i don't
wanna be responsable (?) for messing anyone up .. ya know
and i have a bad feeling that i am not goin gto be a good
mother .. i guess i can only see the bad parts of kids ..
such as runny noses and sticky fingers .. pulling on
cloths .. and screaming and dirty dippers .. ya see that is
not me .. I just can't do that !
I dunno why Manda wants them .. they are not always good
Manda you have no idea what u will get yourself into !
humm ne ways soo Jeff finally got back online today and ya
know i really did miss talking to him i just have a bad
feeling that he is gonna think i am like * stalker chic * i
dunno ! I hope not b/c i am not at all like that ..
Darcy comes back day after tomorrow and Manda is about to
poke her eye out ! I mean it .. its like * AHHH !* and trey
is Bugging my about helpping pick out flowers for Darcy I
still have not got her a welcome back present ! I feel
kinda like a bad friend ! Yes I am missing practice to go
and get her but when have i ever gone to morning practice !
*ATTENTION I JUST CALLED JEFF AND SOME LADY ANSWERED AND
WAS ALL HE IS NOT HOME THIS MAKES NO SINCE TO ME I AM NOT
SURE WHAT IS GOING ON !!!!!!!!!!!*
I DUNNO I GOTTA GO I AM ANGRY LATES !!!!!!!!!
MAC