OneGurlArmy

love and sex and miss-matched socks
2002-08-13 04:31:25 (UTC)

Javon

Was talking to a guy online last night. Had a web cam, so I
could watch him while i was typing to him... it was neat.
So after a few hours we decided to meet at Waffle house...

Javon is 19, going to college for criminal justice and has
also been a fire fighter since he was 16. Living his dream.
So... after sitting at waffle house for a couple hours
chatting away... we decided to 'watch tv or something' at
his place. Sat in his room for 4 hours. Talked, tickled,
wrestled, argued, shared idea, philosophies, goals. Things
didnt get hot until 5 or so in the morning. We started
making out and one thing led to another and our clothes
ended up on the floor and I wanted him so bad. And I was
going to give it up too, but he didnt have a condom. He
looked everywhere... asked his brother... and was going to
go to the store... but i figured it was better to leave it
alone. A sign that things shouldnt be done.

Javon smells good. I know that is weird for me to notice...
but i just love the way he smells, and his room smells nice
too. He lit candels and turned out the lights. The setting
and smell and lighting was so nice. It felt nice to be so
comfortable and romantic and wanted.

I am reluctant to call or visit again. He is all that i
want. But I dont want what i want. Make sense? I want to be
true to Joe. I want that more than anything. I want nothing
to come between us. But it is so dumb to blow off guys
because of him. Because he is a freaking million miles
away. So joe is what i want in the future when he is within
arms length, and now i want javon... because he is the
present... he is touchable... he is available... he is so
sexy and smart and so right now.

anyways... i shall lay my head on the soft pillow and
retire to my dreams.




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