LoveGod

Different Worlds
2002-08-11 03:46:44 (UTC)

clearing my mind

There's so much running through my mind right now. I'm so
distracted. I'm trying to spend some quiet time with God,
but I just can't seem to focus. It really stuck out to me
that today's quiet time study was about anger. There was
so much in those 6 or 8 verses that just really hit me.
It was also reassuring because Psalm 4:4 said When you are
disturbed, do not sin; ponder it on your beds and be
silent." That's how I've been handling my anger towards
Adam so far. I've asked people to pray for us both and
I've been doing a lot of praying myself, but I haven't
said anything hurtful to him. It's taken a lot of
willpower, but so far I've managed to be angry but not
sin. I think that's pretty exciting, especially
considering how petty Adam can make me. I think I may
finally be letting go of him all together. I also think I
still have a long way to go. I'm just going to keep
praying that if there are feelings of mine that I need to
share with Adam, that God will give me the wisdom to know
what to say and when to say it. As always, feel free to
send me a message if you have any prayer requests. I've
decided not to go to church tomorrow. I don't feel called
to go anywhere this week, so right now I'm just planning
to spend some time alone tomorrow getting caught up on my
reading and doing some more in depth Bible study. I may
do like I've done a couple of times before and plan a
whole sequence of songs to sing and passages to read and
stuff before diving in really deep. We'll just have to
wait and see. And pray that God will give the self-
discipline to carry out all my big plans.




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