emogirl524

my dashboard confessional

today i went out with beth and ashley...at first i was
ok...but then i felt myself getting annoyed really
easily...maybe i'm too concerned about getting a
house...but i need to before josh and i move back..oh that
reminds me i have to call terry about that job...i'm so
tired...mentally and physically tired...i hate the
decisions in life...you don't know what is right and what
is going to make your life better until you make your
choices...i know if josh moved up here that would
definately make my life even better...to be with him every
day...i hate this distance...it stinks...terribly...i hate
not being able to see him whenever i want to...and paying
for our calls...it get so damn expensive...i just hope he
moves back with me...well, talk is cheep...it's the actions
that count..and i know he wants to move back with me..but
it's the whole apartment and job and money thing that might
stop it or prolong it...i don't want to wait anymore...i
need him here now...i feel so sad and angry at life a lot
right now...why can't things go the way i want them
to...why can they go the way josh wants them to? why does
everything always seem to get fucked up...hopefully someday
our life together will be awesome...i will always love him
forever