LoveGod

Different Worlds
2002-08-09 05:23:48 (UTC)

I'm so selfish!!!

Have I totally forgotten how terrifying it is to be
getting ready to leave for college? It hasn't been that
long. I've been talking to Adam and he's been telling me
how freaked out he is. I honestly don't know how well
he's going to handle it. And earlier I was all ticked off
because he didn't talk to me. I feel guilty now for not
considering how he was feeling. I'm so selfish
sometimes. But at the same time I feel like he's
manipulating me. I don't know. I don't know how to help
him, and I'm pissed off that I even care. We did agree
that we don't even know each other anymore. I explained
to him how miserable I am here. I want to help him
because I know he's at a scary point in his life, but I
just don't want to care about him anymore. Like I told
him, I don't even know him anymore. People are different
on IM. *gasp* like that's some big revelation. In no
time at all he becomes exactly who I want him to be. And
to add to the fun, he hit a deer while he was taking
Kelley home and apparently he's been talking to April.
I'm tempted to say that there was something between them
before, but I'm not at all sure about that. Oh well...it
really doesn't matter at all now does it? I'm going to go
talk to Matt now. He'll make me feel better. I need some
help.




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