Echo

crawing into my own deep dark depths
2002-08-08 19:07:16 (UTC)

I guess i will talk about my..

I guess i will talk about my sister. we were mever
really close at least i cant remember her and i being
close. I aways wanted to be. She never gave sisterly advice
and i couldnt ever go to her with problems and for her
help. it would have made my life alot easyer.
When i was a kid i made her bed fpr her and she huged
me. (we never hug or any of that sister stuff) And ever
since then i have wanted to please her like i did that
time. But since then i wised up and 2 years ago i began to
find my oun identaty. And i like who i am for the most
part. But she hates the way i dress and the way i wear my
hair and do my makeup. but i've tuned her out.
But still in the back of my mind is that child who
wants to be close and please my sister. we have stoped
getting in to girlfights but we still yell at each other.
Some times i cant stand her.
Come to think of it i dont think we've had a
convorstation in over 3 years. But that has changed. We
started to talk when we at the pool in our hotel a cople
days ago. and she told me about her relationships with guys
and i told her mine. But i held back some (telling her i'm
bisexual). But we really talked.
I guess our relationship has gotten better but we
still dont have sisterly talks.




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