Loveme2

Loveme2
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2001-07-10 00:04:40 (UTC)

Why O Why!?

HE IS LEAVING ME AGAIN I DIDN'T THINK IT WOULD HAPPEN BUT
EVEN THOUGH HE HAS BEEN SEPERATED FROM ME FOR 6 MONTHS
BECAUSE OF HIS BEING MILITARY HE IS NOW BEING TAKING AWAY
FOR A YEAR!!!! WHY IS EVERYTHING WORKING AGAINST US.
Little ol' me can't take this everyone thinks that i am all
so strong but I am not!!! If everyone knew the truth about
my life about all I have been through. my husband knows it
all he is my support and I was strong for now but the other
day I went back to my old ways. On thursday I took a razor
and slashed my arm 9 times. And you know what I felt
better. I feel better. but I know it is wrong but I can't
stop. I don't know what is wrong i dont' want to kill
myself because of my baby and I would never leave my aby
the way everyone leaves me. My aby is the only one who is
keeping me from slashing wrist wide open or taking a bottle
of sleeping pills or driving by car into anything that will
kill me. But I am scared i cant tell anyone because I will
be kicked out of my ...job. And that record will follow me
forever. what am I going to do Lord help me. Let a
miracle happen.


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