Jessica T.

how i see life...
2002-08-07 04:40:22 (UTC)

hair

so today i got a hair-cut. you may say,"so?" but it was
so much more to me. i have always been afraid of alot of
change(in more than just my hair). so whenever i went to
get my hair cut it ususally meant that i was just getting
it trimmed. today when nicole asked what we wanted to do
today i just made up my mind and said, "i want something
different. do whatever you want."
she was totally excited because it's not very often where
a hair stylist gets to do that. she kept on assuring me
that it was going to be so cute and it would be so easy to
do. surprisingly enough i wasn't scared about it at all
probably because i trust her and i told her of my hair
trama in 6th grade(the ugly bowl cut). just don't ask.
well she said that it would look great with my face and it
would totally surprise my friends. she got to cutting.
soon the majority of my hair was on the floor instead of
attached to my head. usually i would be so terrified but
oddly enough it was exciting and new for me. it's like
starting off fresh. i felt so free and it was a decision
i made without thinking how other people would react. i
look forward to making more decisions like that. you may
think, wow she didn't have to make a very big decision
that is so so stupid. it may be stupid for you but for me
and my sheltered life it was a step into being me. and
while my hair was getting chopped off i relized the last
time i went to get my hair cut i made sure to keep it long
because the guy that i was seeing at the time liked long
hair. so this time i was getting my hair cut for me and
no body else. it was an awesome feeling. and i think i
am finally over him. i no longer want to be with him or
like him. it feels good to be over someone. :)
it's like i shed more than hair. it's like i shed alot of
my bad attitude and negative thoughts. its like a load
off!




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