alexa86

the diary of a polar bear
2002-08-06 13:40:06 (UTC)

my life sux

hey. today i was going to go to sebastians house. i talked
to him yesterday and he is a real jerk. i can't belive him.
why does everyone i care about end up leaving me?

i felt a special bonding with him the first time we met. he
attracted me in av very strange way. i sort of knew that we
were made out of the same stuff. then i figured out his
birthday is the same day as mine. maybe we were soultwins.
anyways, we didn't meet for like five months and then we
met again. i felt the starnge feeling i had had last time,
and it seemed that he felt it too.

it ended up with us holding hands through all of star wars
and he asked for my number. i gave it to him, and he
started calling me.and he started talking about his ex.
why??!!! oh man. anyways, we ended up meeting three times
before the holidays, and the last one he seemed cold, and
distant.

now i asked him if he wanted to meet me, he said that he
remembered what he had told me and that he just didn't feel
the same way. "moved on" bullshit!

there must be something really wrong with me. he is like
the third or fourth guy who has done this to me. all in
different ways, but all ending up hurting me. i fall in
love so easily and it makes me so vounrable.

i am in despair. i don't know what to do!

alexa

(sorry for all the type mistakes. this pc is fucked)




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