LBangel

My thoughts, my feelings, my experiences
2002-08-05 16:16:15 (UTC)

The Weekend 8-5

Friday night I worked and I was absolulety miserable. My
mouth hurt sooo bad. Not to mention that we were absolutely
dead. I was in smoking. I made $35 in 5.5 hours, but it was
only because I got a $7 tip and 2 two $5 tips.

Chuck and I were supposed to go to Detroit on Sat but he
had a huge deadline for work. He worked from 8 in the
morning Friday till 3 in the morning Friday night. Then was
back at 7 Sat morning and worked till noon. I was gonna
take him to the zoo, then go hame and visit with my parents
for a while, then I was gonna take him to Mexican Fiesta to
eat, then we were gonna stop by Marias party so I could see
Vicki. But by the time he got outta work it was too late. I
was a little dissappointed. I was really excited to have
him meet my parents.

So he suggested we go to Rivertown instead. I got a ton a
clothes, Im set for school next year. I spent about $200.
Well actually I spent 100 and he spent 100. He insisted. He
is so amazing. I got a blue Abercrombie t shirt, a thin
white shirt with blue flowers, a grey and pink shirt, and 2
undershirts/tank tops deals. One's pink and one's white.
All from Abercrombie. I got a light camel colored long
sleeve shirt and 2 tie belts from Weathervane. I got these
super cute brown dress pants that fit me awesome, a pink
tank top that Chuck picked out, a cute yellow shirt, and
PINK pants from Rue 21. And I got a Camel colored 3-4
sleeve shirt from Express. Then we went to eat at
Kaunaville. We both loved it. Great atmosphere, great food.

Then we went back to the apartment and bummed around, took
a nap. We ran out of condoms so we went to Meijer, he
bought a huge box of like 40. Then we watched O and went to
bed. Slept till 12 Sunday morning. Then he made me french
toast and we were lazy until I had to go to work.

Work was OK yesterday. We were pretty busy except we were
on a 5 so I only had 4 tables, its pretty hard to be busy
and make any money with only 4 tables. Ive been thinking
about going some where else, Im just not making enough
money because there are always way too many servers on the
floor.

I cried yesterday. We didnt fight or anything likr that. We
were laying in bed talking and I asked him to promise me
that he wont forget how wonderful it is right now between
us. We are going to go 2 months in between seeing each
other. That is so long, especially since weve gotten so
close, I cant stand being away from him for more then a
day. So I asked him to promise me he wouldnt forget. He
said he could never forget and he asked if I would forget.
And I said, 'I hope not.' And that wasnt the answer he was
looking for because I could tell he was upset. And I told
him that I was scared of hurting, not scared of him hurting
me. But it is going to be sooo hard. I tried to hold back
my tears but I just couldnt. I dont want him to go!!! God I
dont want him to go. But we dont have a choice. He HAS to
finish school.

Chuck wants to get a pre-nup when we get married. I HATE
the idea of that. He wants to make sure he doesnt lose his
car, or his gun collection, or his coin collection, or any
of the other stuff thats been in his family for
generations. Hes mentioned it before and he talked about it
more in depth. It makes my heart sink to think about it. I
mean, I understand why hes doing it. His brother went
through a nesty divorse and lost everything. To me a pre
nup is like saying, 'WHEN we get divorced I want to make
sure I get all my shit back.' And I know thats not what its
like to him, nothing is for sure, and that stuff is very
important to him. But it still hurts.

He told his mom about our plans for next May. That we
wanted to move in together. She took it well. He tells me
that theyre starting to get an idea of how serious we are.

He said sooo many cute things to me this weekend. 'You
complete me.' He was talking about what he's gonna tell his
buddies and he goes, 'I love her, I cant live without her,
I want to marry her.' We were dancing to 'How Sweet it is
to be loved by you' and he was singin to me. Oh my God he
is so amazing.

~*Laura




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