SinisterKisses

Sanity is overated
2002-08-04 08:13:17 (UTC)

It's 3:02 am, do you know where you are?

Yeah, so I couldn't think of a title :) Anyways, I
haven't written in a bit because I FINALLY went back to
work. I know I have mentioned before, but to reiterate, I
went crawling back to my old-old job. I'm back to being a
counter jockey at a convenience store. Ooh, big difference
this time is I am the manager, so a little bit more
responsibility and a little more to do when order and
inventory need to be done, but mostly it's a bunch of
sitting on my ass, waiting for customers to come in. Once
students come back into town work will be a little bit
busier, but the majority of the day will still be me
reading or drawing, or bullshitting with Kev (he works in
the same food court where it's located) or some such bs to
pass time. Oh joy. At least I am getting paid though.

I figured since I had this oppurtunity to have a
completely bs job, I would color my hair. I bleached the
front and underside of it red. We're not talking run of
the mill red, but like stop sign red :) The name of the
shade is "Vampire Red", nice gothy name and I am by no
means gothy. It looks cool and I have all sorts of hottie
freaky chicks talking to me which is a nice bonus. 2 of
the girls are entirely just to hot, we're talking nice
asses and happy boobies. Yum! It's so much more fun to
look at women than men. I mean, unless a guy has an
attractive face, not much else catches my attention. Women
on the other hand, even the not as hot ones can have
good "assets". And being a woman I don't get caught
checking women out nearly as much as when I look at men, to
date I don't think I have been found out once by a woman.
*sigh* Oh well, only eye candy.

Not much else is happening on this end. I am having a
bout with insomnia though and have taken to using sleeping
pills to go to sleep. I have been taking one pill at
night, but I am going to try to ween myself down to a half
pill and then none. Hopefully, that will work, otherwise I
think I will find myself talking to a therapist, because I
can't deal with this not sleeping shit. I get so messed up
when I haven't slept. Last summer when Brendan was in
Oregon I went through a small bout of it and had something
like 8 hrs of sleep in 2 wks and I was just becoming a
little insane. I was emotional, achy as hell and just not
with it. The only thing that eventually pulled me out of
it was becoming so exhausted that I just passed out one
night for like 13 hours and after that I was fine. That
hasn't been the case this time though. Heh, I'm in the
process of waiting for my pill to hit me right now
actually. They seem to take around an hour for me to work
but once I fall asleep I am ASLEEP. Normally, each night
around 4 or 5 times I wake up for absolutely no reason,
other to look at the clock and go "Ooh I can still sleep",
definitely not restful sleeping. I wish I knew why I had
so damn many issues sleeping, it's not like I have
nightmares or anything. Ugh, if it's not one thing it's
another, I swear.

I'm going to contact my old employer and see about
filing a delayed grievance against my boss for announcing
to the office through a memo that I was canned. I found
out from a friend that not only is that against hospital
policy, but it's against the law. So, if I can't file a
grievance I am going to contact a couple lawyers and see
what legal action I can take, if any. It's funny, I am
really wanting to do this for no other reason than to prove
to this asshole that he isn't as damn great as he thinks he
is. Revenge is sometimes a nice thing.

Well, I am beginning to feel a bit sleepy, so I am
going to retire for the evening. Au revoir!




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