iluvpokeystix

the infinite life and times of one
2002-08-03 19:56:14 (UTC)

post marcellus and hungover as fuck

well after work yesterday i stopped by the school because
the band camp kids just got back and stuff. it was so cool
walking in there cos everybody flocked to me... they ran
across the band room and were all like "katie!!!! i miss
you so much blah blah blah blah" you know, it was like i
was famous. and then i saw brandon... i think he misses me,
but i dont know. fyi i was madly in love with him for about
two years but we only screwed around nothing serious and he
got diagnosed for depression and things went downhill. i
hated his last girlfriend she was a bitch. anyway, he
picked me up off the ground when he hugged me... he said
things have changed alot with him and i dont doubt it but
things never "change" like he says for long. anyway, i miss
him... the "thing" between us is gone... for the good
though... but i miss the sound of his voice. its like
ross's voice... maybe thats why i like ross so much. anyway
we went to the mall for a quick stop after the band
visitation and i bought some badass purple vans...
we got down to marcellus and blah blah... you know, we went
out to the lake pretty early nd i dont drink until it gets
dark so britty and i want canoeing for a little while..
havent been on a canoe in about 10 years... or so it seems.
maybe 8 lol.
anyway man everybody was there... like we got back from canoeing and
it started to get dark so i finished off the bottle of baileys (left
over from last time!! lol) in about a half hour... i dont know how
much was in it, pat spence said there was about 3 inches left in the
bottle so im guessing a good third of it was left. well... over the
course of the rest of the night.. or at last the next few hours, i
had about 4 or 5 bottles of smirnoff ice, which is really good until
about the 4th or 5th bottle which i had trouble finishing. i also had
trouble walking and a little bit of trouble talking but as far as
talking goes i only messed up just as often as i would when i was
sober. but after all of those, i went off onto the dock and laid down
and looked at the stars, im not sure if ross wandered out on his own
or if geren pushed him out there with me, but we talkd for a little
while... rather i think he listened but i dont remember what i talked
about. anyway, when we went back to the fire (britty and nate slept
in brittys bravada after about 1 or 2 and drove people up to the
house to pee once in awhile) ross gave me his button up shirt he was
wearing cos i only had a tanktop cos britty had my hoodie and was
sleeping.. sort of. i think. anyway it was really super soft like
brushed cotton or something you know. anyway, i was sitting between
geren and ross and was so tired... ross was really antagonizing me
all ngiht long. moreso than he did to everyone else put together and
times 3. lol. but i kept leaning back or to the sides like i was
gonna fall alseep... half conscious and leaning on ross half the time
when we were sitting down there... and people started to go back up
to the house or leave at about 3 and josh got there about 330 nd left
at 4 though but it was good to see him, he kept trying to protect me
from joe (who was here again. no swimming. he was trashed again :( i
hate it when he hits on me like that) and all this... all the guys
there wanted me to stay with them all and go to the party at steves
house tonight... i wish!! but my crazy pot smoking biker uncles are
throwing a party tonight for anyone who wants to go.. theres a band,
beer, and grilled food. lol... anyway, so yeah we finally get back to
the house -- im not too sure how though -- and there were 4 people
sleeping in the living room, two in gerens room, nick was in his room
and nick's friend was in the spare bed (nick is hilarious when drunk.
even worse than me!!!) so me and geren slept up in his attic with
like 6 fans on... and starting about 830 i threw up in one of gerens
buckets up there every 45 minutes... i threw up 5 times. i wanted to
die. and then ross left about noon-ish i think. at that point i had
moved into gerens room cos ross had left his spot open and gerens
room is on the same floor and right across from the bathroom :) still
had the bucket (but i emptied it every time and cleaned it out too)
but it was weird watching him leave, he went to hug me instead ot eh
usual me hugging him... i had to chase after him through the house
cos i was still wearing his shirt which he didnt really care if he
got back. i should have kept it lol. speaking of, i left my lunch
pail and ice pak out at the lake. :( uh oh ... oh well. but i gave
ross the cds... i hope he likes them :) anyway, yeah it was weird.
but im going to miss him. alot. and geren too. they take such good
care of me when im over there, it kind of hurts me (and its all my
fault im well aware) that most of those guys from around there that i
know (oh.. brad was there! :) hes so funny... hottie too lol) have
only seen me when ive been trashed. so thats why they have to come
visit me at school this fall. cos ill be sober most of the time.
hopefully. anyway ... i have to go to the bathroom, probably getting
rid of the last of the smirnoff in my body, and im really really
tired. i dont know if im gonna go out to lowell for the big party
tonight. ill call britty when shes out of work at about 615 and we'll
see then. but thats all for now. oh and i got an email from ms hall
congratulating me on my ap english score (4)... :) that was pretty
cool. im off to nap.




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