~E

My Crimes
2002-08-03 15:27:24 (UTC)

so today is the day

Jake and I have been battling with this wondering if it
really is the right thing. Lastnight at 10pm I said welp
we have less then 12 hours to make up our minds. Right
now neither of us feel that we are adult enough to make up
our minds and we really wish someone would do it for us.

I fear that we are going to regret this choise but we
don't know what else to do.

we leave in about an hour... I keep telling myself, in 4
hours it will be all done.

When you think of it 4 hours is really nothing. Even in a
day after 4 hours is up you still have 20 more of that day
to go.

honestly I fear him leaving after this... Unable to
handle the stress from it all.

only time will tell.

I really wish Kat would of come with me. a girl would of
been better then a boy and I really hope he doesn't try to
calm me by saying I love you...

Painfully enough love isn't going to take away physical
pain I'm going to have to endure.

~E




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