HelloKitty

Life as I know it.
2001-07-07 19:23:33 (UTC)

I want you to notice when Im not around

the title of this entry, yeah thats what i want from a
guy. Can I find it? Who knows?

Last night was John's 23rd birthday, so obviously we went
out. I first baked him a cheesecake (yeah i got domestic),
then I took him out to dinner and even bought a bottle of
wine, then we went back to his place to chill for a bit,
then we went out to his favorite bars which we usually go
to on saturday nights, now we know why we go out on
saturday nights cause these places were like sucky last
night. I was drunk. I had to be drunk, i danced...that is
how i know i am getting drunk. I came home, talked to soem
people for a bit, then went to bed. SO no Matt hook up,
which wouldnt have happened anyway cause ive had enough of
this whole situation. It just gets me still, the whole
breaking up thing, he always talked about "us" way into the
future, he even wanted to marry me, but to then turn around
and treat me like this where i even had to ask him if we
were friends, thats bullshit. I deserve better. And I
know I can find it, I should just stop making guy friends
and actually want something more from a guy than just
friendship. BLAH. Oh well off to get ready got to get
some provisions for john's party tonight.




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