naughttychild

ANARCHYCOOKBOOK
2001-07-07 13:55:41 (UTC)

distorted mind

DUDE........ PEOPLE PISS ME OFF SO MUCH.
I HATE WHEN PEOPLE ACCUSE ME OF SHIT I
DIDN'T DO, IT PISSES ME OFF MORE THAN ANY
THING TO GET BLAMED WHEN YOU DIDN'T EVEN DO
ANYTHING.PEOPLE CAN BE SO FUCKED UP I CAN'T
STAND IT. MAN ALREADY I'M STRESSING ABOUT SCHOOL
THIS SUX SO BAD. I HATE MY SCHOOL MORE THAN ANYTHING.
WELL AS I SAID BEFORE I REALLY HATE WHEN PEOPLE ARE
SO QUICK TO JUDGE, I THINK PEOPLE SHOULD KEEP AN
OPEN MIND. LAST YEAR A LOT OF PEOPLE MESSED WITH
ME AND I'M STILL REALLY UPSET ABOUT THAT. LIKE AT
LACROSSE ALL THESE PEOPLE ON MY TEAM WOULD BITCH AT
ME, FOR THE STUPIDEST FUCKEN REASONS. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
THIS ONE GIRL WAS ALWAYS FLIPPING OUT ON ME AND ONE
DAY I SET HER STRAIGHT AND TOLD HER TO LEAVE ME ALONE.
WELL, WHAT DO YOU KNOW SHE LIES TO EVERYONE ON THE TEAM
AND SAID I TRIED TO HIT HER WITH MY LACROSSE STICK. WHAT
A BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE I'D REALLY TRY
TO DO THAT INFRONT OF MY MOM AND COACH. FIRST OF ALL
I WOULDN'T HAVE DONE IT AT ALL, 'CAUSE I WOULD'VE
BEEN KICKED OFF THE TEAM AND IT WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN
WORTH IT, AND MY COACH WOULD'VE HATED ME, WHICH
I THINK SHE ALREADY DOES. I HATE WHEN PEOPLE SAY THINGS
THAT THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW TO BE TRUE. MY COACH SAID TO
ME "SOMETIMES CHLOE YOU DO GET MAD AND FEEL LIKE HITTING
PEOPLE AND YOU CAN'T CONTROLL IT AND YOU END UP DOING IT"
FIRST OF ALL MY DAMN COACH HAD NO RIGHT TO SAY THAT,
BECAUSE IT ISN'T EVEN TRUE. I'VE ONLY BEEN IN ONE FIGHT
IN MY WHOLE LIFE, AND AS I SAID BEFORE I ONLY DEFENDED
MY SELF WHEN THE GIRL WAS LIKE CHOKING ME. GOD PEOPLE
PISS ME OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MEAN DAMN PEOPLE,
DON'T SAY DUMB SHIT LIKE THAT TO ME WHEN IT ISN'T
FUCKEN TRUE. MY COACH MAKES ME KIND OF MAD BECAUSE
SHE SUCKS UP TO CERTAIN PEOPLE ON THE TEAM. WHICH REMINDS
ME OF THE OTHER THING I HATE MOST...... WHICH IS FUCKEN
FAKE PEOPLE. I HATE FAKE PEOPLE BECAUSE THEY DON'T EXPRESS
WHAT'S REALLY ON THEIR MIND, AND FAKE PEOPLE ARE THE ONES
THAT LIKE TO START ALL THE TROUBLE.AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WITH MY LUCK MY COACH WILL PROBABLY READ THIS, AND
ONCE AGAIN I'LL GET IN TROUBLE, BECAUSE GOD FORBID I
EXPRESS MY OPINION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THAT'S WHY WHEN I GRADUATE COLLEGE I WANT TO BE A LAWYER.
WHY DO ALL THE BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO ME?¿
THAT'S A QUESTION THAT FREQUENTLY PASSES THROUGH MY
DISTORTED MIND, HENCE THE TITLE.
I OFTEN WONDER WHY I'M SUCH A CONFUSED INDIVIDUAL,
MAYBE THAT'S HALF MY PROBLEM? (CONFUSED)
ANYWAY I GUESS MOST OF MY ANGER COMES THROUGH ALL THE
BULL SHIT I'VE DELT THROUGHOUT MY LIFE. YES I KNOW
YOU'RE ALL PROBABLY THINKING WE ALL GO THROUGH IT,
BUT I'VE BEEN ROYALLY "FUCKED WITH" MY ENTIRE LIFE.
I'M PRETTY SURE THAT'S WHERE MOST OF MY ANGER STEMS FROM.
WHICH IS PROBABLY WHY I HATE MY SCHOOL. ONCE AGAIN I'M
"CONFUSED" THIS IS CRAZY, UNBELIEVIBLY CRAZY SHIT I'M
WRITING, AND I KNOW PROBABLY NO-ONE IS GOING TO READ
THIS, LET ALONE CARE ABOUT WHAT I'M WRITING. BUT OH WELL!
PEOPLE MAKE ME MAD WHEN I TRY TO DO NICE THINGS FOR THEM,
AND ALL THEY DO IS COMPLAIN ABOUT THE ONE WRONG THING
I DID, SO THEY THAN TREAT ME LIKE SHIT. IT HAPPENS ALL
THE TIME WITH ME. THAT DIDN'T MAKE SENSE DID IT?"CONFUSED"
I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I'VE BEEN KIND OF DEPRESSED LATELY.
IT'S REALLY BOTHERING ME BECAUSE MY MEDICINE HAS BEEN
HELPING ME SO MUCH, AND I THINK THE THOUGHT OF BEING
AROUND SO MANY OF THOSE SHITTY PEOPLE AT SCHOOL IS REALLY
SCARING ME, AND MY PARENTS DON'T UNDERSTAND. I HOPE I
DON'T SLIP INTO DEPRESSION AGAIN, BECAUSE BEING DEPRESSED
IS REALLY SCARY TO GO THROUGH, BECAUSE YOU OFTEN FEEL
ALONE, WHICH IS ONE OF THE REASONS WHY I'M WRITING THIS
DIARY AND LETTING ALL YOU PEOPLE READ IT, WHICH I DOUBT
ANY ONE WILL FIND THIS INTERESTING.
I REALLY WISH PEOPLE WOULD REPLY TO MY ENTRIES, BECAUSE IT'S
NICE KNOWING THAT YOU NOT ALL ALONE.
WELL I'M GOING TO GO FOR NOW, I FEEL MUCH BETTER WRITING.

WRITE ME BACK,
L8TER-
CHLOE