Ad 0:
2002-08-01 01:41:48 (UTC)

Am I giving up?

I so hard everyday to make him happy, but sometimes it don't seem enough. When am I just going to be able to go on with life without having to fight for this person. I get so sick of it when ppl tell me that I don't deserve something and they do. I just wanna give everything up that I have worked for. I am sick of fighting with ppl every damn day over the same damn thing. I know it would be wrong if I just gave up and didn't tell him why. I don't wanna give up, but how do I go about keeping everything inside and not saying or doing anything about it. I have been through hell and back with him. I gave up everything to be with him. I have told me family off for him. I gave him everything that I could give. What more is it going to take for all these ppl just leave us the fuck alone. There are somethings I say that make him mad and when I do he just acts like that he don't wanna talk to me. I don't know what I am doing wrong. I don't know what to say to him anymore. All these feelings come when ppl start there bullshit and they think I should just set there and take it. Today I was on the phone with him and he call this fag that says he is having his baby and that they fuck all the time. This guy told me that I would never have JT again and that I was a whore. Don't get me wrong I don't hate fags it's just the ones like that. I don't understand how a guy can have another guys baby. They are not even made right. I have went through this shit for to damn long. I know if I go and say something I am going to be the one who is told off and then I will be the one who has givin up and let ppl come between us. I am going to try and make it work, but I know if that they don't stop then it is just going to get worse. I will never give up on him loving me I will just have to give up on him fighting over it.