~*Kandice*~

ShUt Up sTuPiD DaMMit
2002-07-29 13:19:18 (UTC)

way to make me feel unloved....

i have found the way to make me feel extreemly unloved.
since not calling when you say your going to is a pet
peeve, it has grown. now im starting to take it personal.
more so if its someone that should want to call me, say a
certian boyfriend! since i had my wisdom teeth taken out
on thursday kelly said "i'll call ya later" on thursday
nite....he didnt. then friday as i lay here in pain, hes
going to brandons house. (i made him feel bad and he
brought me a chocolate shake) and then he siad "do you want
me to call you later?" and me being kinda mad about the day
before i said "if you want to" "of course i want to, talk
to you later baby" and guess what....no phone call. so he
finally called me saturday at 4:30 and he finally came over
to hang out with me. he stayed until 2:15am. and when he
left he said "i'll call you tomorrow" and i was like "yeah
ok" ok sure he called. at 7pm. i mean he called so that
counts for something right. the boys were going to the
movies, he acculy invited me. but i had already seen the
movie. and i wasnt feeling to good. so he said "do you
want me to give you a call later?" and i said "yeah if you
want to" he said "i do thats why i called you know" so at
11 i went to bed. and then i woke up at 3 am noticing that
he hadnt called me. i dont want to sound like he has to
call me all the time. only when he says hes going to, ya
know? it just makes me feel like he doesnt care about me
very much. and it makes me feel like the only reason hes
going out with me is because he thinks im hot (notto sound
conceded...cuz im not...i think im stinky)and we make out
alot. but because of my sergory my cheeks are puffy and i
cant even eat let alone kiss. so that makes me feel bad
too, but i dont think thats why hes with me. i just want to
be mad at him when talk to him, but i cant because i am
happy to get to be talking to him. he just knows how to
make me sad! stupid boys!




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