Freedom

keeping my hands in the air
2002-07-27 21:33:51 (UTC)

Nameless

well, everytime i think of corey, i get butterflies in my
stomach and i can't help but smile to myself knowing that
we both share some type of secret. this could definitely
turn into something that ive been waiting for. i wonder if
we will get together. i wonder what will happen between
us. but most of all, i wonder if it's what i really want.
and here's the answer: i don't know. it's like, i do want
it, but at the same time, ive been more used to the idea
of it rather than the reality of it. i had always wanted
to be together with him. i just never wondered what would
happen if it actually did happen. and then i wonder if
it's what he really wants too. i know that he's at least
attracted to me. as for something more, im not so sure. i
want to talk to him about it, but what do i say? "hey
corey, am i who you really want to be with?" i still do
have feelings for him. im just questioning his intentions.
i don't know if all he wants is some type of fling or an
actual relationship. and im not sure if i want an actual
relationship or just stick to the idea of the fantasy. but
im so tired of dreaming things up. i want things to
happen. my heart is extremely stubborn. i just want to
talk to him. and hear his voice. and i want to see him.
and have him see me too.




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