stupid loser

.:hate.every.beautiful.day:.
2002-07-26 16:59:03 (UTC)

daddys little defect

im back...ok well i might as well just finish yesterdays
thing.

ok so me and george were inside in my basement online. i
was sittin on the comp. chair then he wanted to sit down so
he just sat in front of me. yeah very uncomfortable for my legs..
(haha). it was fun tho. so my little brother comes down and just sat
there playin his gameboy and i swear my mom does it on purpose
just to make sure im not fuckin the damn kid..which i didnt. and
i dont plan on too ::makes evil grin:: no im kiddin :)

i guess he said the word shit or sumthing and adam (my brother) goes
upstairs and tells my mom that he was sayin a bad word.
dude i could have just arg!! but george just laughed. so i
guess it was around 6:30 and he had to be home around 7 cuz
he lied to his mom about where he was. he said he was goin
to track practice. so he left. and my mom was like ohh that
kid seems nice. y dont u go out w/ him. im like dude u dont
know him. and the whole friggin night she kept sayin that i
should go out w/ the kid. god help me! hes just my friend.

then around 8:30 i went to the track w/ chris,sara,anthony,
and joe. it was fun. they r all from my old school and i
dont get to see them too much so its always good when i can
hang out w/ them. we all were just standing around in the
street in front of saras house talkin. then rob came over
and hes a nice kid. and when im around rob he makes me
think of my ex b/f ,jim,for sum reason. maybe bcuz they r good
friends and rob always has a funny jim story.i havent seen
jim in a year. we talk sumtimes online and he still tells
me that he likes me, but things have changed for me.if i see him
again i dont know how i would feel. theres a part of me that
still likes him and another that is like eww god y am i
even thinkin that! and sumtimes i think back when we were
goin out and we were almost in a fight everyday for stupid
reasons. and i think the only reason i dumped him was bcuz i
was goin to a different highschool the next year and i liked this
other kid. which was a really fucked up thing cuz i think the day
after i broke up w/ jim i got w/ the kid i liked, tim.yeah
i know tim,jim..almost the same. and jim never even did
nething that was wrong. he was always sweet to me and...i
dont know. i was only 13 or 14 and i had no fucking clue how i should
treat my b/f. i mean my other b/fs b4 that lasted about hm.. 1 week?
is like i cant keep a steady b/f so i just have one. that way no ne
gets hurt. but the thing w/ jim,its not gonna happen.

ok well im done. im goin to my dads this weekend. and
hopefully i will get my warped tour tickets cuz i need them
BADLY. so u kids have a fun weekend ill be back sunday.

-me


going all the way,
looking so helpless,
everyday
daddy's little defect
all the same
keep your secret away from me, if you want to be mine.

Daddy's little defect--sugarcult




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