Spunkiemonkie

Diarys have names?
2002-07-26 02:38:52 (UTC)

GRRRRR!!!

Okie Okie Okie. Im about to ramble about some funky dreams
I had and my current problems. So yeah....

Dream number 1: Before I say the dream, I should say why I
had it. I recently watched the Green mile for the first
time. And I just loved it, I cried, I laughed, it was very
good. So yeah, here it goes. I was walking in the dark.
It was pitch black. So I couldn't see shit. Anyway, all
of a sudden someone put their arms around me. It was a
muscular guy, but it it wasn't John Coffey (just like the
drink, only not spelt the same). This guy had a dark
complection. He had black hair. And the most beautiful
dark dark brown eyes. I said thanks for saving my life and
then I woke up.
Someone told me that the dream meant that someone very
special that I know has pulled me out of the dark and
lightened my life back up again. And when I think about
it, I know who it is.

Dream number 2: I was on a vacation. And I was sleeping.
Then I woke up (I was a sleep in the dream and I woke up in
the dream)Anyway I was walking around and brushing my hair
at the same time. then just a bunch of hair kept on
falling out. It got to the point where I had a bald spot
the sixe of my hand. I showed my mother. Then she started
saying rude comments. Then I hit her and said that's it,
I'm not going to take any more shit from you. So all of a
sudden the scenery went back to my town. Then right before
I got home I jumped in a car which just happened to be a
friends car. I showed him my head and he said just shave
it all off. And I said how? Hw said with a razor and then
he gave me one. So I shaved my head. then I got out of
the car and started walking, then all of a sudden I was in
santa Cruz. My sister walked by and didn't notice me.
Then my dad noticed me and he was like blah blah blah you
upset your mother. Then I said I dont care, Im gonna
move. So I left and woke up. Weird dream eh?

Ok my problem is, I am balding. Im only 15! And
female! And well, My mom doesn't want me to go to the
doc. So Im like, well, it could be a fungal infection.
and she said yeah right. and I said you'll find out when I
die. Ever since then I just cant talk to her nicely. And
well, our relationshi is oging down hill. It's always been
bad, but its getting to the point where I just cant talk to
her at all. My dad's a my relationship is ok. Its not
good, but OK. I hate my sisters except for my older one
who is 27 I think. She is 11 fuckin years older then me.
I can only seem to get along with poeple around that age.
And You know, Im royally screwed. I lost close friendships
to that. Cuz peopole my age (15-18) are just too immature
for me. Sure I have my moments when I am like that, but I
am not consantly like that. *sighs* Im done :)




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