sweetaddiction

you you gave this to me this is..

you
you gave this to me
this is niside of me.
because i was once a part of you.
this
is evil
i need to be stronger
i have to be better
better than you
and better than them all
i have to show them that iiii
can do it.
that i am capable
i have to show myself
i can do this
i dont need this.
i dont need any of this..

i dont NEED THIS
I DONT NEED THIS
why can i NOT get that to prgam right in my brain
you have brought me SOO fuckign much pain
my virginity
my fucking conscience
i LOST SO FUCKING MUCH
because of THIS FUCKING SHIT
you know
fucking
my college education
fucking
EVERYTHING
my parents
my BEST FUCKING FRIENDS.
my fucking SELF
and still
what the FUCK did i do tonight
and i dont fucking teel me to