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2001-07-03 22:01:29 (UTC)

July 3, 2001 again

Here's some quotes and poems that I wrote and that I think
are really good (you gotta understand how bored I am right
"Start every day off with a smile and get it over with."
"It is better to have loved and lost, than never to have
loved at all."
"The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put
up with the rain."
"Draw circles around the ones you love, not hearts. hearts
can be broken, whereas a circle is neverending."
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten
Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but
have everlasting life." -New Testament, Psalms, Proverbs

Poem written on March 24, 2001:

You see me
And you think you know who I am
But you don't
You feel me brush past you
Because it hurts to speak
And you think I've gotten over it
But I haven't
You watch me smile
And you think I'm happy
But I'm not
You think you know just how I feel
And that I'm easy to figure out
But you don't
Underneath that smile
Is a lonely girl
Needing you
And wanting you
To tell me that you want me
And make my dream come true

Poem written on March 25, 2001:

I feel like
I'm the only one left
In a world
Where everyone is happy
And I'm not.
I feel like
My heart has been ripped out
And stomped on
By someone who doesn't want me
And I'm sad
I feel like
Every single person
That I thought cared for me
Is gone
And I'm all alone.
I feel like
What's the use?
And then I remember
I still have God.

Poem written on March 25, 2001

Why do you stare when I tell you I want you? Why do you
turn away when I try to speak to you? Why don't you want
me? What's wrong with me? Am I not good enough? Is it
because I'm ugly? Or skinny? Or is it because you want a
girl that will give it up? Well, not this girl. I won't
waste any more of my time. I'm just gonna get the hell
on. I've got one more thing to say: If you don't want me,
fuck you!

Poem written on March 25, 2001

I try to get over you
But it's so hard
And I know life's not easy,
But damn it's hard
You don't want me
And it's hard to accept
I know I need to accept it
But damn it's hard
Everyone says I'm lucky
But it's hard to believe
If I was lucky I'd have you
And I don't, and it's hard
Damn it's hard

Well, as you can see this was a very rough patch in my
life, but I am way over that right now. I was obsessing
over a guy and it was really stupid. Anyway, I just wanted
to share some of my poetry and shit. If I write anymore
then I'll put it in here for you to read. Maybe at another
time I will copy stuff I've written down in the past into's stuff that was around that time of those poems
I wrote. It kinda explains it all. Oh well, gotta go get
some stuff straight for tonight.