Yup, my name.

Tuff Questions
2002-07-22 07:02:54 (UTC)

Whewww.... now what?

well.... last night's entry was a bit... well full i'll
say. some stuff that i had kinda pushed down kinda is back
again... but i'm working on it. things are better the way
they are now... an i want them to stay that way.
anyways... my genius friend karebear told me
her "pyschoanalysis" or w/e of my whole situatoin, and what
she said REALLY made sense. i still can't see myself
breaking thing's off with sarah. i mean... i think it'll
happen eventually but just not yet. my whole like love
life in general has been nuts lately man. its like, things
couldve been so different if just like the slightest little
things would have changed u know. but anyways.... enough
of that i guess. tonight's an early night i guess... =P...
laura was tired so she signed off... so i guess i got
nothing to do now. she's confused about her situation, and
so am i. i wish i could give her some good advice... but i
don't wanna like be biased about anything. i'm really
hoping things work out for the best for her. i want her to
be happy but at the same time i want her to be w/ a GREAT,
and i mean the god damn best guy there is. she's a real
special girl... and i just want the best for her.
(siiigh)...... but anywayz... i guess i'm gonna end it
here. don't wanna go off like a crazy guy like last
night... i gotta check up on myself from time to time...
=P. i went back and reread what i wrote last night and i
sorta wanted to change it. i didn't though... when i
wrote it i was like "in the zone" if u will u know. like
tapped into the REAL feelings or w/e. thats why when i
feel stuff like that i like to get it down on something so
i don't be an idiot and try to think about it for 3 hours
before i say something. anyways... i guess i'm done...
goodnight guys
Me
p.s. time to attempt to get some sleep... despite what i
wrote here, i have a million things in my mind.

EDIT**: Alright... "M" i wasn't totally truthful with u tonight. i
kept in a lot of what i was feeling because i don't want it to be
like what happened before... i just felt bad not letting u know.. so
i wanted to put it here. That time i signed off was for a reason...
i just kinda got all... i dunno... well i do but w/e... i misread
that e-mail u sent me thinking it was TO who it was FROM and vice
versa, so i misread it. i'm gonna leave it at that... just wanted u
to know the truth and all... didn't wanna lie. Ok... guess i'm done
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