Jessica T.

how i see life...
2002-07-22 04:55:39 (UTC)

drowning

"living is the journey we make, dying is coming home"
today on lake michigan there was a drowning. it couldn't
help but trudge up memories of kerry's death. the girls
and i were sitting in rachels basement when kyle two-wayed
rachel and said that someone drowned. my heart stopped.
along with that was the flood of memories that i had from
june 7th. sitting in my basement playing euchre when zach
got that phone call from his dad. then everyone flying to
their cars to go down to the yaght club but jennifer and i
staying behind because my dad didn't want me down there.
mrs. charron was kind enough to let us stay until we heard
any word on what was going on. i remember not crawling
into bed until 4:30 in the morning only being able to
sleep about 4 hours. waking the next morning was the
worst feeling in the world. you know that split second
that you don't think about what is going on in your life
but then coming to the chilling realization that what
happened the night before was so very real. that was a
terrible feeling. and on top of that i had to actually
play in a volleyball tournament that day(weekend). i
couldn't play to my full potential knowing that they
couldn't find her. i was a complete wreak. no, i wasn't
a close friend of kerry's but she was part of my class and
i saw her as a sister. it still hurt inside to actually
think she is gone. i wouldn't admit it, but the painful
truth revealed itself when they couldn't find her. the
memory is so fresh in my head. i can't believe it's a
little over a month since it has happened. and now with
this recent drowning the wound has been opened again and
the pain seems fresh again too. i miss her, and i know
alot of people do. i just hope her memory lives on
forever.
we love you and miss you kerry




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