My so called life...
2002-07-21 03:52:52 (UTC)

Another one bites the dust....

Mood - Drunk (is drunk a mood?)
Listing to - John Mayer - My Stupid Mouth

Another day goes by, another one bites the dust and I've
done absolutly nothing today. How sad, I'm sitting here
drinkin' Johnny at home at 8:30 on a Saturday night. Granted
I'm not drinkin' by myself but still pretty pathetic.

I went out last night to the House of Blues, Sunset Strip.
I thought it would be pretty cool but it sucked. We left
kind of early but its okay, "it was kind of dead anyways." I
drank too much again and tried to drive home. I made it but
it wasn't easy. I went to Taco Hell before I got home. A
word of advise, don't get food when your drunk. When I woke
up this morning I found myself passed out on the couch with
the half eaten remains of 20 tacos scattered about the
apartment. Aparently I started my taco killing spree in my
walkin closet and ended up on the couch. The grisley remains
of a dismembered taco, wedged in between the cushins of the
couch. It took me 3 hours to clean the apt. I need to watch
how much I drink cuz we just can't be having this anymore.

SPK just called. She wanted me to go out with Anna and her.
I need to be really carefull around her.

I don't know what happened. Before I use to be such a
thoughtfull person. I never did anything to hurt anyone and
always kept in mind the other person's feelings. For the
past few years, I've lost that feeling. I went out with
people just to go out with them. Just to "play" with out
really caring about them. I don't want to be like that
anymore. I don't want to act unless I know the consiquences.
I'm going to change. I'm going to be different. More caring.
The person I know I am deep inside. The person I naturally